Four years ago my grandmother passed away. Each year it seems like she moves farther and farther away and I forget who she is. But I think I have become more her inside of me. When something happens I just think what she would tell me. She meant a lot to me and it was sad to see her go. Being there when she died scared me freaked me out even though I was in the other room. Since she died soooo much in my life has changed I have grown up. I lost weight which is something she always wanted to do. I graduated college and she would have been so proud to see me walk across that stage. There is sooo many little things I have done that she would have been so proud of me. People must think I am crazy always talking about her but I dont deal with change well and losing her made me have to embrace change.

Luckily I WILL see her again because of God's grace. She is in heaven right now with no cancer and with her Jesus. All you have to do is admit, believe and confess and accept Jesus and you can be in heaven to. I am so happy to have grown up with my family teaching about Jesus. Jesus is my life, my decision I make, and sooo much more. I trust in Him with my life and with my career, friendships, relationships, anything. It is such an amazing love and trust I have!! :)