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Hiiii everyone. I had a pretty good night. There is a verse I have been hearing since I was kid. In Deuteronomy 6:5-6
5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts.

I have heard this verse my whole life and tonight I saw it in a different light. :) and it made me smile.

So one kid tonight said to me when I was standing on the truck in my gorrilla mask "Are you King Kong?" I was like yes. But I was thinking if I had put on that mask 2 years ago I would have really looked like King Kong. I have changed soooo much. The only thing I dont like is my extra flab. I always think people are looking at it. I cant wait when I loose two more pounds I am going to weigh what I want to loose. How weird. I will be able to carry the weight that is going to go away. Going to be very weird.

My sis is away tonight I miss her and my cat. I keeping thinking hes alive and hes not :(

better

well this stinks my post got deleted.

its amazing what a little prayer and bible reading can do to make everything better :)

i feel much better :)

i did it

Yes i did i made it 130. i know my blog last night wasnt very happy about my weight loss but it has changed.

The one night something great happens though something bad has to happen. I should be the happiest girl right now I have lost the weight of a young adult and everything gets ruined. My old friend who I had to drop because she was effecting my spiritual life is always trying to get back at me. She is telling people I let my weight loss get to my head and im really not. Loosing this weight has helped me sooo much find myself the real me inside. I was sooo lost for awhile and now I am back in full force. I am not trying to hide anything anymore. My whole purpose in life is to glrify God now. I want to be a set apart women and not like the world. My life isnt about money or pleasing other people its about pleasing God and trying to do everything for Him. I just got to be thinking I can do all thing through Christ who stregthens me. I can do this. I can be happy. Just gotta have faith everything will be ok.

Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall

My weight

Lately my weight has been annoying me sooo much. So I loose for 3 weeks then I cant make it to 130. Today I worked sooooo hard. I burned 700 calories at the gym, went for my long walk, then went for a short walk with my mom. I ate amazing tonight. I didnt snack bad. I mean it could be because im not eating enough. I am very lost with this all I mean I keep pushing it. The weekends get me everytime. I always get hungry on the weekends. But my weight was doing goo dall weekend. Sometimes I just dont understand I just want to get to goal it has been a long two years. But I am also kinda scared that once I get to the end I wont keep it up thats why I have to go to meetings for the rest of my life. I know I can do this I am just praying my weight goes down. I really think God is trying to teach me patience. I could use more of it but I thought I have been good at being patient.

I have been enjoying the cool weather :) I woke up this morning to 55 degree weather. I was freezing but it felt soooooo good.

Lets hope I make it to loosing 130 lbs tomorrow. wow 130 lbs I cant believe how close I am!! ahhhhhhhhh soo exciting!!

Better day

So it has been a better day. I am still sad about my cat I barely slept last night I fell asleep crying and holding my turtle. I am starting to remember the good things about it but its really hard. I came home after work and going to the gym and had to come home without him being here that was hard. But our other cat Angel she looks sooo sad. She is sitting by the door to the backyard where he is buried.

I am so thankful for this beautiful day God has given us today. It is a crisp 64 degrees. I am shocked it is soo cold so early. But I love it :)

Icecream

Yep my cats name is Icecream, well was icecream... it was his time to go tonight. I will sure miss him. He was a good kitty. He was found in Jacksonville by a McDonalds dumpster when my dad went to go get icecream. So then we brought him all the way down to south florida and he became the king of the house. He loved table food and cat nip at christmas. My dad even used to play spin the cat when he was younger. He was such a pretty siamese cat. I know this might sound weird me writing something about my cat but he was with us for 14 years and meant a lot to our family. Ill miss him!!

Praise God!!!

Today has just been an awesome day!!! First I go on my school email and find out that the school gave me a $500 schloarship because of all the stuff I have had to go through and they are trying to find me more funding!! God is sooo good I was getting sooo worried and trying to be I know God will provide and it was really hard and today he provided some money!!! Today has just been an awesome day!!

Then we take the cat to the vet wondering if he was dying. well hes not dying he has 2 lbs of fluid in his stomach!! but he is old so we have to keep an eye on him. I have been praying for my cat so has my whole family. he has been apart of family since november 94. I am soo glad he doesnt have anything bad!!

my devotion tonight was on giving thanks how fitting!!!

Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.
10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.
13 to him who divided the Red Sea [a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.
16 to him who led his people through the desert,
His love endures forever.
17 who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel;
His love endures forever.
23 to the One who remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies,
His love endures forever.
25 and who gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.

An Amazing night

Tonight I was home alone which I was sad about because I dont like being home alone but tonight I wasnt sad because I read a Psaml 91:5-12 in my book about not being afraid I knew God was with me and I had no reason to worry. I know I knew this verse but I never think about when im home alone.

Another awesome thing happened to me tonight I did something I never did before with Jesus. It was such an amazing experience and a very hard thing to do in my house because it is soo small and there are 5 of us and I dont have a spot to myself. I got down on my knees and prayed in the silence. I sat there knowing Jesus was with me listening to me. But I didnt just get on my knees I got really close to the ground. I did that because without Jesus helping me lose every and each pound I would never be able to do that. I was never able to bend now before but because of God's love and faithfulness I have lost 129 pounds and I give all the praise to him. Tonight was an amazing being alone with God. Its undescriable. I love having a relationship with my Savior!! I want to do everything to glorify Him!! I have been reading so many books lately and they always talk about being a Proverbs 31 woman and thats what I want to be. I have found my prince...Jesus. Thats all I need I know he will bring me that special guy someday but I have my prince and that makes me really happy :) I have come to a conclusion that no more searching for that right guy I need to be close to my Prince and He will know who that right guy is for me. That right guy who he gives me will bring up and not down spiritually and emotionally. We both will be close to Jesus and thats what will make the relationship a million times better. This book I am reading now has made me want to be set apart from everyone.

I love you Jesus :) <><

It has been a great day!!

Wow God is soooo good. This day has been amazing!! I went to the gym had an awesome workout burning 600 cals. Went home went for a walk and I just walk and say everything is sooo beautiful that God created. I was smiling on my walk because it has been a great day!! Then I go to publix to get dinner and I hear this cd in my sisters car it was amazing. I looked the girl up and she is a christian singer and her songs are good. I like them. This one song gave me a feeling that I cant even explain. I am definitly thinking it was a God thing. I sound like a freak but I cant explain it. Today was a great day!!!!!

Since I cant post this on facebook

I know I cant put this on facebook without getting yelled at im gonna put it on here and when a friend wants to see it im gonna show them the link.

Today we went bridesmaid dress shopping for my bros wedding! This is kinda the dress it is going to be a different color and the beading a little different. Dont mind my hair i know it looks really poofy.

My heart hurts

For anyone who knows me well enough when I get the chance to tell someone how much weight I lost I do. I have this huge burdon on my heart when I see someone when I am at work, school, or at the grocery store I want to share about weight watchers. I know how people feel when they walk around and have a lot of extra fat and you just feel like everyone is looking at you. I cant wait to share my story with world. Sometimes I casually mention weight watchers if i get a chance and a way to plug it in. Usually when I talk about calories.

I am soooo grateful for the new me. God has blessed me soo much with this diet. I am changing sooo much. I fit into SMALL shirts. I used to be a 1X and going to a small is just crazy!! I am starting to look different again!! I cant wait till goal I see it coming!!!!!!!

Wow

When I am down in the dumps or am thinking a way I shouldnt God just puts the right verse right in front of me! In my devotion the verse tonight was In James 4:13-17

13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.

The one bolded was the main verse. I have been dealing with an issue on giving up on something. But I need to be thinking "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." I love how God puts the word straight in front of me when im struggling on an issue.

I love you Jesus!!!

little ms. homemaker

I have enjoyed soo much this week taking care of my mommy when she was sick. I enjoyed making dinners for my parents. Tonight dinner was awesome and I had soo much fun making it. I made hamburgers on the stove and waffle fries!! I love to cook.

I cant wait to find my Boaz and make cute little dinners. Obviously it would be a little more different than the way I make the dinners for my parents. I wouldnt be using paper plates with a big sun smiley face. Well I might because thats just me I always smile. I love doing nice things for people and giving and making special things for my friends it makes me happy :)

Ugh

I hate playing games with my weight. I went to the gym worked my behiney off burning 600 cals I go home go for a walk. Eat dinner and my weight is up which is normal and I had a good dinner. I mean I did drink water so it makes sense. I didnt eat a bad dinner. I dont like food. It is never nice to me. I am trying to get to goal and its sooo hard sometimes. I want to go back to the days of loosing 2 lbs a week or 1 lb. I know God has the plan and is in control but I just want to get to goal and get this fat off. I am ready but then why do I always mess it up with the food I eat? This diet can be so hard sometimes.

My workouts

My workouts have changed soo much over the past few weeks. My workouts used to be so secular and now they have turned into praising God. I read books that help me learn about that man worth waiting for. When im down in the slumps of my workout ready to quit I turn up a worship song and know that God is there with me every minute helping me push my way through it. Praise you in this storm is one of my fave songs to listen to when im in the slumps. Also set the world on fire is also another one because thats what I want to do. I want to set the world on fire with my weightloss and God combined. I LOVE working out with God by my side!!!