Hi from Orlando!!! My Tuesday 10!!
1. My safe trip to Orlando.
2. The awesome humongous truck we have!! It was pretty comfy!!
3. The nice hotel room (look on facebook for pics)!!
4. My awesome friends who put up with my craziness!! Thanks soo much Tati!!
5. For my family and the funny jokes we say in the car
6. That no matter how many times my dad blasts Phil COllins while im watching a DVD and I cant hear I still know he loves me!!
7. That I have actually kept doing this for a few weeks now and not forgetting even when I am away!!
8. That I followed rules with my aunt when they visited and had a no drama weekend. Even though she didnt talk to me.
9. That I am listening to God's voice leading my life.
10. I didnt get in trouble in the car!!! That tends to happen where I get yelled at!! I am trying to be more mature in some situations!!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Sunday
I went to church as I usually do on Sunday. I really enjoyed Sunday School today. Alex taught because my brother is in Boston till next Sunday. We talked about how with you christian brothers and sister how hard it is to tak about Jesus. It is if you think about it when you go to church and you talk to people you just talk about your week and how things are going. We also talked about lifting people up. I know I have many of my friends at church if I have an issue I can go to them. I really am appreciative of my church family and all the spirtitual advice they give me. We also talked about prayer and how it feels good to know someone is praying for. We learned how we need to lift up our christian brothers and sisters because we have an ultimate thing in common where we all are saved and going to heaven one day. We need to be able to talk about spiritual things. There was more and I forgot some of what I was going to write. I went into nursery after and I was playing soo much with my little ones i forgot what I was going to say. I lvoe Sundays!!!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
2008
I am sitting in the car going to my granddads house again for Christmas turkey leftovers. This Christmas wasn’t about presents my parents didn’t have much money it was basically about being with each other. Yes I got the gift I really wanted and all the other stuff was small stuff. But I didn’t want a lot all I wanted was love from family and friends. I saw Marley and me today and it was a sad movie in the end making me think of my cat(it was a movie about a dog). I am just think past on the last year how I have changed. I have more fully given my all to God there is no more doubting him I give him all my cares and wants. He has always been there for me since before I was born. Which is my favorite part of it one of my favorite bible verse is about God knowing me before my mothers womb the verse in Psalms that I cant think of.
When I think about what has happened this year sooo much of me has changed I have grown up. To make me grow closer to God unfortunately I had to let a best friend of mine go but luckily I had a good support system to help me. When I did that some awesome things happened. I am a happy person but I just became happier not having a negative person drag me down. I have an awesome family who noticed I became a lot happier. I have 2 awesome best friends who will be there for me forever. They helped me through a lot too. They know I have my faith even though sometimes we believe different things they know I love them. I met some awesome people this year. In my classes I made new friends who are really nice and cool people and we got a good grade on our project!! I met someone well kinda but not really and with them having a heart following after God kinda helped me wanting the same thing. Now I cant get enough of the Bible and learning new things. This person probably doesn’t know that and I really look up to them!! I got to see the guy who is like my brother in the military and his fiancé this weekend he showed me that I can go to him with any advice I want and he will give me Godly advice. I need to get back on track with my weight this year it hasn’t been the best but I know I should get to goal next year I need everyone’s help! One thing I have learned also is patience I know God has a plan in my life and I want to wait for Him so I know it is done the right way.
Next year is going to be crazy and I can see what God has in store for me. I turn 21 (not like I am going to drink), I have 2 wedding I am in (one being my brothers), and lots more!! 2009 is going to rock because I know I have a Father who loves me sooo much and even died for me and that is the most exciting thing!! I know he is with me forever( I am listening to the song forever). I challenge you next year to give your life to God fully. See what amazing things he does in your life!! I know God will provide me with the wisdom and knowledge on how to live my life. I know he is with me always wherever I am and I was to serve Him with my whole heart. My theme kinda for my life is like the pictures I have made with the bible verses in Proverbs. I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman and I am next year going to pray for God to give me wisdom.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Phil. 4:13
When I think about what has happened this year sooo much of me has changed I have grown up. To make me grow closer to God unfortunately I had to let a best friend of mine go but luckily I had a good support system to help me. When I did that some awesome things happened. I am a happy person but I just became happier not having a negative person drag me down. I have an awesome family who noticed I became a lot happier. I have 2 awesome best friends who will be there for me forever. They helped me through a lot too. They know I have my faith even though sometimes we believe different things they know I love them. I met some awesome people this year. In my classes I made new friends who are really nice and cool people and we got a good grade on our project!! I met someone well kinda but not really and with them having a heart following after God kinda helped me wanting the same thing. Now I cant get enough of the Bible and learning new things. This person probably doesn’t know that and I really look up to them!! I got to see the guy who is like my brother in the military and his fiancé this weekend he showed me that I can go to him with any advice I want and he will give me Godly advice. I need to get back on track with my weight this year it hasn’t been the best but I know I should get to goal next year I need everyone’s help! One thing I have learned also is patience I know God has a plan in my life and I want to wait for Him so I know it is done the right way.
Next year is going to be crazy and I can see what God has in store for me. I turn 21 (not like I am going to drink), I have 2 wedding I am in (one being my brothers), and lots more!! 2009 is going to rock because I know I have a Father who loves me sooo much and even died for me and that is the most exciting thing!! I know he is with me forever( I am listening to the song forever). I challenge you next year to give your life to God fully. See what amazing things he does in your life!! I know God will provide me with the wisdom and knowledge on how to live my life. I know he is with me always wherever I am and I was to serve Him with my whole heart. My theme kinda for my life is like the pictures I have made with the bible verses in Proverbs. I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman and I am next year going to pray for God to give me wisdom.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Phil. 4:13
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
CHRISTmas eve!!
I enjoyed my Christmas eve at church tonight. I didnt get to go into the service but I got to listen to it while sitting with my little babies. The really young ones who are younger than 2 years old. I sat there the whole night just holding Lucy and making sure Abby didnt fall. Babies are sooo sweet. I loved being able to atleast listen to the service and being there with some older people and some young moms just showing the love of Jesus to these little babies. I love my little babies at church and watching them grow up with amazing parents who teach them the love of Jesus. I am thankful for the time my nursery workers gave me when I was a baby so my parents could be in the service. I heart babies and I hope one day God blesses me with some of my own :) I wouldnt want to spend Christmas eve with anyone else.
I was also messing with photoshop tonight that I got from my bro here are two pics that this was all i could do. I am not very good at it. I dont know if you can read the words but it is my favorite Proverbs verses :)
I was also messing with photoshop tonight that I got from my bro here are two pics that this was all i could do. I am not very good at it. I dont know if you can read the words but it is my favorite Proverbs verses :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Tuesday 10!!!
It is time for another Tuesday 10!!
1. I kinda sorta fit into my bridesmaid dress and all that needs to be is it to be let out.
2. That I love the way I look in my dress. I use to kinda complain because I didnt know what it was going to look like and I absolutely adore it and I cant wait to be in their wedding.
3. Chris because he is my brother from another mother. When I have any question he will always be there for me. When I have a question he gives me biblical answers. Since my bro is sooo much older he is there for me when I need him the most. <3 you sooo much
4. I am thankful that Chris found the girl of his dreams and she is sooo great. They are such a cute and loving couple.
5. Nick and Jen they taught me what a Godly relationship should be like. I look up to them and love them sooo much and sooo happy they FINALLY got married this weekend.
6. That we didnt loose buttermilk this time while watching her like last time.
7. My straight hair. I love the curls but sometimes it feels good to change it up.
8. CHRISTMAS!! It is going to be an amazing CHRISTmas I know I am not getting that many gifts but I am happy to be spending time with my family.
9. A family who has taught me that CHRISTmas is not about gifts it is about the birth of Jesus. I cant take any of those gifts with me to heaven all I can take is my soul. wow that sounds kinda scary.
10. My zeal for going and learning about the word. I love being in church and I was actually sad that we didnt have sunday school last week. I love being with my church friends and studying the bible. I just have this passion to learn more and more.
1. I kinda sorta fit into my bridesmaid dress and all that needs to be is it to be let out.
2. That I love the way I look in my dress. I use to kinda complain because I didnt know what it was going to look like and I absolutely adore it and I cant wait to be in their wedding.
3. Chris because he is my brother from another mother. When I have any question he will always be there for me. When I have a question he gives me biblical answers. Since my bro is sooo much older he is there for me when I need him the most. <3 you sooo much
4. I am thankful that Chris found the girl of his dreams and she is sooo great. They are such a cute and loving couple.
5. Nick and Jen they taught me what a Godly relationship should be like. I look up to them and love them sooo much and sooo happy they FINALLY got married this weekend.
6. That we didnt loose buttermilk this time while watching her like last time.
7. My straight hair. I love the curls but sometimes it feels good to change it up.
8. CHRISTMAS!! It is going to be an amazing CHRISTmas I know I am not getting that many gifts but I am happy to be spending time with my family.
9. A family who has taught me that CHRISTmas is not about gifts it is about the birth of Jesus. I cant take any of those gifts with me to heaven all I can take is my soul. wow that sounds kinda scary.
10. My zeal for going and learning about the word. I love being in church and I was actually sad that we didnt have sunday school last week. I love being with my church friends and studying the bible. I just have this passion to learn more and more.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
What a busy weekend
It all started on Thursday night when we have Jen's bridal shower with the girls, then Friday was my aunts bday, Saturday the wedding, Saturday ngiht my parents invited people over, and Sunday (today) my bros bday.
The wedding was one of the most beautiful weddings. I have known Jen ever since I started going to NLBC she is the sweetest girl and she married an awesome guy. I am sooo happy for them. When I saw her walk down the aisle with her she brought tears to my eyes on how beautiful she was. When Nick saw her walk down the aisle his face was priceless. The recpetion was fun too. I mean she was on a low budget and the wedding was amazing.
I got to see my friend Chris this weekend and his fiance Lisa. I got my dress for their wedding. I look AMAZING in it. We hung out a bit. I miss him sooo much he is like a brother to me. I can go to him for any advice and he will give me a Godly answer needed. I love his fiance too she is sooooo funny. I am soo glad he got a great girl.
This weekend is still not over I have to throw a bridal showe tomorrow for Chris and Lisa. But I took some really cute pics this weekend!! I am happy. Maybe I will post them on here but they are on facebook so probably not.
Amazing weekend but I miss my BFFLS <3
The wedding was one of the most beautiful weddings. I have known Jen ever since I started going to NLBC she is the sweetest girl and she married an awesome guy. I am sooo happy for them. When I saw her walk down the aisle with her she brought tears to my eyes on how beautiful she was. When Nick saw her walk down the aisle his face was priceless. The recpetion was fun too. I mean she was on a low budget and the wedding was amazing.
I got to see my friend Chris this weekend and his fiance Lisa. I got my dress for their wedding. I look AMAZING in it. We hung out a bit. I miss him sooo much he is like a brother to me. I can go to him for any advice and he will give me a Godly answer needed. I love his fiance too she is sooooo funny. I am soo glad he got a great girl.
This weekend is still not over I have to throw a bridal showe tomorrow for Chris and Lisa. But I took some really cute pics this weekend!! I am happy. Maybe I will post them on here but they are on facebook so probably not.
Amazing weekend but I miss my BFFLS <3
Friday, December 19, 2008
My Hair
My BFFL straightened my hair today and it looks AWESOME!!! I took some pics in the dress im wearing to the wedding!!!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Tuesday 10
It is another Tuesday and now I have to think of 10 more things to be thankful for.
1. Pastor Coleman. When I was in Middleburg and went to my uncles church the pastor had differnet views. I also really enjoyed the sermon this sunday.
2. My church kids. I had tons of fun doing childcare this weekend at the Living Nativity. I love teaching them about Jesus! I also love seeing them on fire for God.
3. Buttermilk. She is such a sweet cat and looks like my cat who died and gives me good memories of him. I love babysitting cats.
4. That I am letting God lead my life. I sometimes used to do what I want to do. I feel a real direction with God telling me not to do something and just wait.
5. My church friend who I can tell him what I need prayer for and he is always there for me. I love having people I can always go to when I need something. He gives me motivation and we can talk about anything. He follows up to see how things went that I asked him to pray for. I love my church family <3
6. My car. Without my car I wouldnt have been able to go to aventura mall this week. I can also go visit my grandpa more.
7. I am thankful I fit into a size small dress. I am soo happy to be going to a wedding this weekend and going to be wearing a small dress!! Makes me feel sooo good I fit into a small.
8. For CHRISTmas!! I know my parents dont have much money this year but I know we will make great memories and have a great time.
9. I actually cleaned my desk!! It felt good too!! I was happy for the motivation.
10. That I can handle situations with a smile on my face. I kill people with my smile. Someone can be really rude to me and I will just kill them with my smile. I never get stressed. I have God on my side no need to get stressed. When stress comes my way I kick it out of town. I dont let it get to me.
I read Psalm 112 tonight and I LOVED it!!
1 Praise the LORD.
Blessed is the man who fears the LORD,
who finds great delight in his commands.
2 His children will be mighty in the land;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in his house,
and his righteousness endures forever.
4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright,
for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.
5 Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely,
who conducts his affairs with justice.
6 Surely he will never be shaken;
a righteous man will be remembered forever.
7 He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear;
in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
9 He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor,
his righteousness endures forever;
his horn [d] will be lifted high in honor.
10 The wicked man will see and be vexed,
he will gnash his teeth and waste away;
the longings of the wicked will come to nothing.
1. Pastor Coleman. When I was in Middleburg and went to my uncles church the pastor had differnet views. I also really enjoyed the sermon this sunday.
2. My church kids. I had tons of fun doing childcare this weekend at the Living Nativity. I love teaching them about Jesus! I also love seeing them on fire for God.
3. Buttermilk. She is such a sweet cat and looks like my cat who died and gives me good memories of him. I love babysitting cats.
4. That I am letting God lead my life. I sometimes used to do what I want to do. I feel a real direction with God telling me not to do something and just wait.
5. My church friend who I can tell him what I need prayer for and he is always there for me. I love having people I can always go to when I need something. He gives me motivation and we can talk about anything. He follows up to see how things went that I asked him to pray for. I love my church family <3
6. My car. Without my car I wouldnt have been able to go to aventura mall this week. I can also go visit my grandpa more.
7. I am thankful I fit into a size small dress. I am soo happy to be going to a wedding this weekend and going to be wearing a small dress!! Makes me feel sooo good I fit into a small.
8. For CHRISTmas!! I know my parents dont have much money this year but I know we will make great memories and have a great time.
9. I actually cleaned my desk!! It felt good too!! I was happy for the motivation.
10. That I can handle situations with a smile on my face. I kill people with my smile. Someone can be really rude to me and I will just kill them with my smile. I never get stressed. I have God on my side no need to get stressed. When stress comes my way I kick it out of town. I dont let it get to me.
I read Psalm 112 tonight and I LOVED it!!
1 Praise the LORD.
Blessed is the man who fears the LORD,
who finds great delight in his commands.
2 His children will be mighty in the land;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in his house,
and his righteousness endures forever.
4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright,
for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.
5 Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely,
who conducts his affairs with justice.
6 Surely he will never be shaken;
a righteous man will be remembered forever.
7 He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear;
in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
9 He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor,
his righteousness endures forever;
his horn [d] will be lifted high in honor.
10 The wicked man will see and be vexed,
he will gnash his teeth and waste away;
the longings of the wicked will come to nothing.
Monday, December 15, 2008
This week is going to be crazy
This week is going to be VERY crazy because of soo many things with a wedding and birthdays!!
At church yesterday i learned lots of things the sermon was on some of the characters in the nativity and I thought i would share it. It is the characters and some characteristics they had while going through a tough time.
We start with Zacharias and Elizabeth they have a a similar story to Jesus where an angel comes to Elizabeth and tells her about having a baby named John who is John the Baptist.
Zacharias- John the Baptists dad.
1. Stumbled in faith but got up.
2. obedient but not bitter to God
3. Worshipped at first opportunity
Elizabeth- Zacarias wife
1. Recognized God's favor (grace), humble
2. Exalted Christ
3. Spiritually Sensitive.
What I found interesting with John the baptist is when he leaped in the womb when the presence of God was around and they were talking about Jesus. We need to get excited about the presence of God like John the Baptist in the womb.
These people became great because they were chosen not great because they were chosen.
Mary
1. Accepted without hesitation to a not so easy assignment
2. Exalted the Lord continued in obedience.
Joseph
1. Righteous in law and mercy
2. Obedience when others would not understand. swift obedience.
Shepards
1. God showed and they told "Show and Tell"
2. Worshipped appropriately
Magi- bowed down
1. Humility
2. Determinded to worship
3. brought gifts that were meaningful
Innkeeper
People were pretty hard on the innkeeper.
What room are we making for Christ? Are we like the inn keeper? But it is never too late to make room.
Herod
1. disturbed
2. ignorant
3. schemed
4. manipulated
5. lied
6. infuriated
7. murdered
Now I was learning about all these people and all the people except Harod are what I want to be like. God has a plan for my life and if it is His will then I want to be able to do all these things that these great people did. Which for the most part I do. I have grown up with a faith that if something good happens you thank God!! Hope you enjoyed a little bit more about the Christmas story and who does and says what.
At church yesterday i learned lots of things the sermon was on some of the characters in the nativity and I thought i would share it. It is the characters and some characteristics they had while going through a tough time.
We start with Zacharias and Elizabeth they have a a similar story to Jesus where an angel comes to Elizabeth and tells her about having a baby named John who is John the Baptist.
Zacharias- John the Baptists dad.
1. Stumbled in faith but got up.
2. obedient but not bitter to God
3. Worshipped at first opportunity
Elizabeth- Zacarias wife
1. Recognized God's favor (grace), humble
2. Exalted Christ
3. Spiritually Sensitive.
What I found interesting with John the baptist is when he leaped in the womb when the presence of God was around and they were talking about Jesus. We need to get excited about the presence of God like John the Baptist in the womb.
These people became great because they were chosen not great because they were chosen.
Mary
1. Accepted without hesitation to a not so easy assignment
2. Exalted the Lord continued in obedience.
Joseph
1. Righteous in law and mercy
2. Obedience when others would not understand. swift obedience.
Shepards
1. God showed and they told "Show and Tell"
2. Worshipped appropriately
Magi- bowed down
1. Humility
2. Determinded to worship
3. brought gifts that were meaningful
Innkeeper
People were pretty hard on the innkeeper.
What room are we making for Christ? Are we like the inn keeper? But it is never too late to make room.
Herod
1. disturbed
2. ignorant
3. schemed
4. manipulated
5. lied
6. infuriated
7. murdered
Now I was learning about all these people and all the people except Harod are what I want to be like. God has a plan for my life and if it is His will then I want to be able to do all these things that these great people did. Which for the most part I do. I have grown up with a faith that if something good happens you thank God!! Hope you enjoyed a little bit more about the Christmas story and who does and says what.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Tuesday 1-0
It is Tuesday so it means another 10 things im thankful for :) But before I wrote those things I just need to write how the devil got me today and I dont like it. I was putting myself down a lot and I dont like that. I am sorry to all my friends if I hurt your feelings by what I was saying. Sometimes the devil just likes to get ahold of you.
If I repeat any of these I am sorry but I dont remember what I wrote last week or before.
1. Tatiana for putting up with me on daily basis. I know I can be annoying and I dont mean to. I try to hard to help people when they are down. Look your number one tonight READ THAT BOOK!! it will help you!! Also thanks for being a great friend and always having a great time and helping me to become a better person and helping me be accountable. BFFLS forever
2. Britni. wow she has known me since 6th grade. She has to deal with me too and I am soo sorry. I am glad I have her in my life to also be a good example and always have a good clean time. she knew me in my fat days and never judged me for what I looked like. BFFLS forever!!
3. Jimmy Needham. I read about him and right now I cant stop listening to the song hurricane it is amazing and makes me want to fall on my knees and just praise God. I need Him like a hurricane. go listen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZLf--Uc7V0#
4. The living nativity coming up its going to be amazing!! I get to childcare and I get to be with my little ones and just play and show them what I learned as a kid.
5. Buttermilk is a cat and is going to stay with us she is a siamese and is going to give me good memories of the cat I love and miss icecream.
6. Love letters. I found love letters this week my grandpa wrote to my grandma and I cant express how they made me feel when I read them.
7. I got through my two presentations and one I got an A because I made it fun and interesting!!
8. For this semester to be over it was fun but I ready for a break
9. To start new classes and meet new people!!
10. Learning new bible verses I come to love a lot. God the one and only- I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I need comes from Him, so why not? He's solid rock under my feet, breathing room for my soul, an impregnable castle: I'm set for life. Psalm 62:1-2
Its written int he message it is very understandable I like NKJV or KJV but this will do!! I am not too picky on versions of the bible.
I know this is a long one tonight but I have one more thing on my heart. A friend said today that bugged me she said you cant just sit there and wait on God. But he is the almighty and will always be there for me. He for one died for me and two he healed me miracuoulsly when my neck was hurt in the first grade. God can do anything he wants he can take your life whenever he wants. He has the whole world in His hands. Dont doubt God!! He is ALWAYS there especially in hard times. Without God I wouldnt be who I am today. :)
If I repeat any of these I am sorry but I dont remember what I wrote last week or before.
1. Tatiana for putting up with me on daily basis. I know I can be annoying and I dont mean to. I try to hard to help people when they are down. Look your number one tonight READ THAT BOOK!! it will help you!! Also thanks for being a great friend and always having a great time and helping me to become a better person and helping me be accountable. BFFLS forever
2. Britni. wow she has known me since 6th grade. She has to deal with me too and I am soo sorry. I am glad I have her in my life to also be a good example and always have a good clean time. she knew me in my fat days and never judged me for what I looked like. BFFLS forever!!
3. Jimmy Needham. I read about him and right now I cant stop listening to the song hurricane it is amazing and makes me want to fall on my knees and just praise God. I need Him like a hurricane. go listen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZLf--Uc7V0#
4. The living nativity coming up its going to be amazing!! I get to childcare and I get to be with my little ones and just play and show them what I learned as a kid.
5. Buttermilk is a cat and is going to stay with us she is a siamese and is going to give me good memories of the cat I love and miss icecream.
6. Love letters. I found love letters this week my grandpa wrote to my grandma and I cant express how they made me feel when I read them.
7. I got through my two presentations and one I got an A because I made it fun and interesting!!
8. For this semester to be over it was fun but I ready for a break
9. To start new classes and meet new people!!
10. Learning new bible verses I come to love a lot. God the one and only- I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I need comes from Him, so why not? He's solid rock under my feet, breathing room for my soul, an impregnable castle: I'm set for life. Psalm 62:1-2
Its written int he message it is very understandable I like NKJV or KJV but this will do!! I am not too picky on versions of the bible.
I know this is a long one tonight but I have one more thing on my heart. A friend said today that bugged me she said you cant just sit there and wait on God. But he is the almighty and will always be there for me. He for one died for me and two he healed me miracuoulsly when my neck was hurt in the first grade. God can do anything he wants he can take your life whenever he wants. He has the whole world in His hands. Dont doubt God!! He is ALWAYS there especially in hard times. Without God I wouldnt be who I am today. :)
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Great day!!
Today was an awesome Sunday. I went to church and I had Nursery so I was with my 2-4 little ones(we usually add the 4's because there arent that many kids). I love being with those little kids and seeing the people I was with just show them God's love. I was in their with my mom and this older lady. They keep saying who's birthday was coming up. The kids would answer Jesus and they would repeat the question a lot so the little ones would remember. Yes a two year old knows its Jesus' birthday coming up. I am really thankful for all the workers who held me from birth and taught me sunday school till now. It means a lot knowing I had people helping along my way to help me!! I am thankful for my parents for bringing me up like that which then goes to my grandparents and so on and so on. But not everyone was christians until later in life like my mom's mom wasnt a christian until she was like 12 or so.
Tonight we did a little mini Nativity at the lighting of the greens it was amazing. People love the camel. I like him too :) It was cool and I cant wait to go to it next weekend. Please be praying for it. God is going to do amazing things with it again this year!!
I was reading in my new sunday school magazine about the word love. How people use it a lot no one really makes it special anymore. I know I do it. I am like I love blank. usually it will be some ind of food or band or something but it soo true how people use the word love a lot and lately when I say it I am like wait let me think do I really LOVE that. I will read it again and post some of what it said one day.
I will end my Blog with a Bible verse I read tonight that I liked :)
Make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self control; and to self control, perseverance; and to persevarance, godliness
2 Peter 1:5-6
Tonight we did a little mini Nativity at the lighting of the greens it was amazing. People love the camel. I like him too :) It was cool and I cant wait to go to it next weekend. Please be praying for it. God is going to do amazing things with it again this year!!
I was reading in my new sunday school magazine about the word love. How people use it a lot no one really makes it special anymore. I know I do it. I am like I love blank. usually it will be some ind of food or band or something but it soo true how people use the word love a lot and lately when I say it I am like wait let me think do I really LOVE that. I will read it again and post some of what it said one day.
I will end my Blog with a Bible verse I read tonight that I liked :)
Make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self control; and to self control, perseverance; and to persevarance, godliness
2 Peter 1:5-6
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Joy
I noticed today that lately when I go out or when I go anywhere with people I am always so thankful and so joyful them. I try to make small talk with people or just make it a point to say have a nice day. When I usually say it in a really happy tone because I really mean it and the person usually says it back and is really happy. I am such a talker and a happy person. I have nothing to be stressed out right now just trying to finish up my classes.
I love the joy in my life!!
Today was a good day I got my moms bday present...a new bible.
I am sooo tired I need sleep
I love the joy in my life!!
Today was a good day I got my moms bday present...a new bible.
I am sooo tired I need sleep
Friday, December 5, 2008
Best love story!!
Tonight was a pretty good day. I did 2 presentations in school and did pretty good on them. I went to the mall. Went to the movies and then to my grandpas. My great Uncle came over. Hes soooo funny I love him. I love listening to older people talk they say the bets things and they actually make sense. But there was an issue he looks like my grandma making me think of her. His fave they looked soooo much a like and it was hard at first but eventually I got used it. I got a really bad stomach ache and made think I want my grandma to make it all better. I was looking at the pic of her 50th anniversary and her and my grandpa were sooo happy. He was sooo in love her. They did everything together since he had his own business. It made me want to go on a hunt for pictures of her and I couldnt find any. So I went to go find the love letter I knew where they were and when I was younger and she was alive she didnt want me to read them and to be honest I probably am not supposed to read them now but I had to. I found them and I coped 4 of them. My grandpa was on a trip to Tennessee and they were writing letters to each other. It was the most adorable thing in the world. He Would just write about what he saw and how he missed her. He didnt write he missed her a lot he just wrote I wish you were here with me. You dont know my grandpa he is a quiet man and I could never see him write like that. I wanted to cry in ones closer to when he was coming home it said I want to come home so I can give you hugs and kisses. Mind you this 2 years before they got married I think. aww at the bottom of one of the letters in the begining he writes at the bottom does this make sense. He tried his hardest with these letters and wrote in cursive.
I am rereading them as I type this and I am reading the last one he wrote before coming home and he says " It sure seems like I havent seen you in a long time. Guess I will just have to hurry and come home. Because I dont think it is possible for me to stay away from you." That just about melted my heart. He also ends with " Well I close and go to bed to get my beauty sleep." He signed it Mr. F.D. Me and my grandpa write a like but I need my grandmas because I want to see if we write alike. I know my grandpa and me are alike we second guess ourselves he wrote atleast twice do I make sense. Makes me appreciate my grandparents even more because they has such a God centered relationship and loved each other sooo much.
I have been thinking a lot lately who is that guy for me. I am waiting and making my relationship with God as strong as it can be while I wait. I see guys pass by me and I am like is that him is it him. I know after reading these letters is making me more patient I can wait.
I <3 my grandparents love story. I thank God for putting them together and writing notes to each other.
I am rereading them as I type this and I am reading the last one he wrote before coming home and he says " It sure seems like I havent seen you in a long time. Guess I will just have to hurry and come home. Because I dont think it is possible for me to stay away from you." That just about melted my heart. He also ends with " Well I close and go to bed to get my beauty sleep." He signed it Mr. F.D. Me and my grandpa write a like but I need my grandmas because I want to see if we write alike. I know my grandpa and me are alike we second guess ourselves he wrote atleast twice do I make sense. Makes me appreciate my grandparents even more because they has such a God centered relationship and loved each other sooo much.
I have been thinking a lot lately who is that guy for me. I am waiting and making my relationship with God as strong as it can be while I wait. I see guys pass by me and I am like is that him is it him. I know after reading these letters is making me more patient I can wait.
I <3 my grandparents love story. I thank God for putting them together and writing notes to each other.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Patience
In the past month I have become a lot more patient then what I have been. I used to be sooo impatient on certain issues. God has made me patient and I prayed to be patient. For things coming up in my life and things going on I am very patient. Its funny I was just thinking everyone thinks I am sooo stress free and have no cares I figured out where I get it from my grandpa. He is very easy going and walks very slow and doesnt let things bother him. Thats why I can be patient and wait on that guy who will be everything I want and more. He will be everything God wants for me if I just wait. I have struggled on waiting for that right guy for a while. Well its not like any guy has ever liked me but I know because hes not the right guy for me. I like playing the waiting game with God. He knows whats best for me in my life and I am very happy with that. I seem like I get off topic sometimes and go off and ramble but thats just me :)
I found this awesome christian artist Jimmy Needham and he is amazing. I love his song Breath or Two and Hurricane! Now I have to go buy his cd tomorrow!!
I have two presentations tomorrow I think I am ready. Pray for me :)
I found this awesome christian artist Jimmy Needham and he is amazing. I love his song Breath or Two and Hurricane! Now I have to go buy his cd tomorrow!!
I have two presentations tomorrow I think I am ready. Pray for me :)
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Just another day!
I really have been enjoying writing and sharing my thoughts. Today was a good day just busy with school work and getting ready for finals coming up next week.
My devotions somehow always end up being the same and complimenting each other. It is very weird. But it was talking abou tbeing alive in Christ everyday. I will admit at the begining of this year I wasnt doing so hott with ym aliveness in Christ. But I had to take some people out as my friends and add some really good friends who understand me and can help lift me up!! I have never felt this close to God in awhile. Now every minute of the day I feel him with me. I know he is watching me and helping me get through the day. My life has mad e a 360 its not like I was bad before I just didnt have such a good relationship with God. Now I am on fire for him and I feel amazing. I am such a different person and its pretty good to be able to have amazing friends who can talk to about your faith.
I really liked these points so I thought I would share.
My devotions somehow always end up being the same and complimenting each other. It is very weird. But it was talking abou tbeing alive in Christ everyday. I will admit at the begining of this year I wasnt doing so hott with ym aliveness in Christ. But I had to take some people out as my friends and add some really good friends who understand me and can help lift me up!! I have never felt this close to God in awhile. Now every minute of the day I feel him with me. I know he is watching me and helping me get through the day. My life has mad e a 360 its not like I was bad before I just didnt have such a good relationship with God. Now I am on fire for him and I feel amazing. I am such a different person and its pretty good to be able to have amazing friends who can talk to about your faith.
I really liked these points so I thought I would share.
- The world says we attain happiness by seeking to gain everything we can. Jesus says we experience true joy not by gaining something, but giving it up
- The world says we should be concerned about how much we receive from others, whether that is monetarily, or int erms of physical love, affirmation, or praise. Jesus says that should be concerned with how much we give.
- The world tells us to work hard by making our own way, even stepping on others in the process if thats nesscessary. Jesus says that we are to surrender our will in deference to others, treating them as more important than ourselves.
- The world syas we truly live by following after our own dreams,not letting anything stop us from attaining the material success we seek. Jesus says we truly live by walking in obedience to Him.
I think I am pretty good on these points I love to giving. I love making special gifts for people and making it be something they can think about me when they look at it. Right now I am alive in Christ!! Are you?
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Tuesday 10
I have many things to be thankful for since a lot happened last week.
1. My sister who tried to stand up for me while someone was putting me down and she was there for me when I wouldnt stop crying. That night she even said when were laying down go to sleep "I'm sorry that happened to you today."
2. My granddad I know I write granpa a lot but we actually call him granddad. He has made me see thats what I want in a friend and my future husband. He has a funny sense of humor but can also be serious. Also my pop pop who passed away when I was 9 he meant the world to me too when he was alive.
3. The teaching at my church. I went to my uncles church and they said some things that arent biblically correct. I am happy that I have a pastor who teaches biblically based principles and doesnt yell when he preaches the whole time (ask me if you want to know)
4. My sports management class it has made me decide where I think God wants my career. I think I really want to work in doing something with a sports team and their community foundation. I am going to see where it leads me.
5. I got a lot of my Christmas shopping already done. That is a blessing now I can help my mom shop since December is a busy month.
6. Dennis you have helped me sooo much in sooo many ways even though you probably dont know it. When I need a friend you are there even though you are far away. I only kinda sorta never met you in May and I thank God I did because you are an awesome friend!!
7. Christmas it is a great time to celebrate the birth of Jesus and to give. I love to give during the Christmas season.
8. Randy Denis is a brother to me. He is my brother from another mother. Even though I barely see him he is there no matter what when I need a shoulder to cry on he is there. He helped me form my workouts to what there are today and didnt care what I looked like before I lost my weight. We are best friends forver!!
9. That biggest loser is on tuesday nights. It helps me on my wednesday workouts keeping me motivated to do good.
10. I am thankful to be done with this semester. It has been long but I met a lot of nice people in my classes and got some networking with one of my professors which is important in the business world.
Remember if you feel left out I cant repeat.
Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left...Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left ...Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left ....Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left lol i could repeat that joke forever
<3 all my friends though those friends and thoughts were on my mind!!!
1. My sister who tried to stand up for me while someone was putting me down and she was there for me when I wouldnt stop crying. That night she even said when were laying down go to sleep "I'm sorry that happened to you today."
2. My granddad I know I write granpa a lot but we actually call him granddad. He has made me see thats what I want in a friend and my future husband. He has a funny sense of humor but can also be serious. Also my pop pop who passed away when I was 9 he meant the world to me too when he was alive.
3. The teaching at my church. I went to my uncles church and they said some things that arent biblically correct. I am happy that I have a pastor who teaches biblically based principles and doesnt yell when he preaches the whole time (ask me if you want to know)
4. My sports management class it has made me decide where I think God wants my career. I think I really want to work in doing something with a sports team and their community foundation. I am going to see where it leads me.
5. I got a lot of my Christmas shopping already done. That is a blessing now I can help my mom shop since December is a busy month.
6. Dennis you have helped me sooo much in sooo many ways even though you probably dont know it. When I need a friend you are there even though you are far away. I only kinda sorta never met you in May and I thank God I did because you are an awesome friend!!
7. Christmas it is a great time to celebrate the birth of Jesus and to give. I love to give during the Christmas season.
8. Randy Denis is a brother to me. He is my brother from another mother. Even though I barely see him he is there no matter what when I need a shoulder to cry on he is there. He helped me form my workouts to what there are today and didnt care what I looked like before I lost my weight. We are best friends forver!!
9. That biggest loser is on tuesday nights. It helps me on my wednesday workouts keeping me motivated to do good.
10. I am thankful to be done with this semester. It has been long but I met a lot of nice people in my classes and got some networking with one of my professors which is important in the business world.
Remember if you feel left out I cant repeat.
Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left...Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left ...Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left ....Pete and Repeat were in a boat Pete fell out who was left lol i could repeat that joke forever
<3 all my friends though those friends and thoughts were on my mind!!!
Monday, December 1, 2008
God is really teaching me
Wow so I tyoed the whole thing then it didnt work. I forget what I wrote well some of it.
So in my one devotion tonight it talked about being angry with people and I will admit on friday I was really sad about my aunt saying those mean things but I am not sad anymore. I read Leviticus 19:17-18 and it was about holding grudges. I just need to pray for her she is having issues obviously. But all I can is pray for my family. It will never be the same with her I am her target to bother. But no need to be sad it is all ok. Like my grandmother said "It will get better before I get married."
wow i really forgot what I wrote. I wrote atleast two paragraphs. o well I cant believe its December sooo much is happening this month. There is only 25 almost 24 days till Christmas and I went shopping today and spent wayyy too much money but I didnt do that bad. I am just eing stingy right now.
Now I remember I was writing about my weightloss and how I am mad that I eat too much. If I could just control myself it would be good and I would be at goal right now. I want to go back to counting my points and not making it so freely on the weekends to eat a lot. Can someone just feed me and not let me eat. I love food wayyy to much. Right now my weight isnt bad but I cant stand me only loosing 30 lbs this whole year.
ok time for sleep
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
So in my one devotion tonight it talked about being angry with people and I will admit on friday I was really sad about my aunt saying those mean things but I am not sad anymore. I read Leviticus 19:17-18 and it was about holding grudges. I just need to pray for her she is having issues obviously. But all I can is pray for my family. It will never be the same with her I am her target to bother. But no need to be sad it is all ok. Like my grandmother said "It will get better before I get married."
wow i really forgot what I wrote. I wrote atleast two paragraphs. o well I cant believe its December sooo much is happening this month. There is only 25 almost 24 days till Christmas and I went shopping today and spent wayyy too much money but I didnt do that bad. I am just eing stingy right now.
Now I remember I was writing about my weightloss and how I am mad that I eat too much. If I could just control myself it would be good and I would be at goal right now. I want to go back to counting my points and not making it so freely on the weekends to eat a lot. Can someone just feed me and not let me eat. I love food wayyy to much. Right now my weight isnt bad but I cant stand me only loosing 30 lbs this whole year.
ok time for sleep
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Finally home!!!
Usually I hate leaving but this Thanksgiving turned out to be a really sad one. I got in trouble for something I dont mean to do. I got dirty looks all weekend. Got told things that arent right. I just never have wanted to go home sooo bad.
My uncle and aunt arent happy anymore like they used to be. The kids arent even happy. I am going to be praying for them. We even went to their new church today and it was a different church. I cant explain it but the pastor said some things that were off from they way my family believes or how my church believes. I am sooo thankful for my church family and my pastor. He teaches the true gospel of Christ.
This weekend has been filled with emotion and I learned a lot.
My uncle and aunt arent happy anymore like they used to be. The kids arent even happy. I am going to be praying for them. We even went to their new church today and it was a different church. I cant explain it but the pastor said some things that were off from they way my family believes or how my church believes. I am sooo thankful for my church family and my pastor. He teaches the true gospel of Christ.
This weekend has been filled with emotion and I learned a lot.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Today wasn't such a good day.
Today was filled with lots of crying in the morning. My sister got cornered by my aunt because my pants dont exactly fit right and sometimes they need to be pulled up. I really dont mean to do it I am inbetween sizes and they dont always stay where they need to. But I dont do it on purpose. That basically ruined my whole day she has been giving me dirty looks all weekend and I cant stand it. I dont know what I did to her. She was never like this before I dont know what happened to her. She was mean to my grandma once and I have a feeling I am going to get treated like that. I always thought of her different and not like this. I always looked up to her and my uncle but now that I know they look at every little thing I do I cant anymore. My cousin already said a mean thing once to me last year. I am running on my last nerve but all I can do is pray for them.
My grandpa means soo much to me we were praying and holding hands the other night and was squeezing my hand tight and then the other day when I was hugging him bye he held on a little longer usually it is a quick hug. I feel so special in his arms my love for him is soooo great. But I was looking at him tonight and he is looking so old. Made me sad. He is such a great man of God!! I love hearing him pray and talk about the bible. My 7 year cousin just accepted Jesus into his heart and my grandpa gave him a big boys bible. My grandparents have always meant the world to me minus the one mean grandma.
I am calming down a lot it was hard this morning. It was hard to make myself happy after that I tried my hardest. Funny thing was my devotion last night was on anger. I didnt get angry I just got sad. Writing helps though and I have the best sister to fight for me and the bestest friends in the world to help me through it all!!
My grandpa means soo much to me we were praying and holding hands the other night and was squeezing my hand tight and then the other day when I was hugging him bye he held on a little longer usually it is a quick hug. I feel so special in his arms my love for him is soooo great. But I was looking at him tonight and he is looking so old. Made me sad. He is such a great man of God!! I love hearing him pray and talk about the bible. My 7 year cousin just accepted Jesus into his heart and my grandpa gave him a big boys bible. My grandparents have always meant the world to me minus the one mean grandma.
I am calming down a lot it was hard this morning. It was hard to make myself happy after that I tried my hardest. Funny thing was my devotion last night was on anger. I didnt get angry I just got sad. Writing helps though and I have the best sister to fight for me and the bestest friends in the world to help me through it all!!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Day after Thanksgiving
Today was a very relaxing day around the house. We watched a couple of movies, played outside, ate, and just hung out. It is nice not to worry about anything and just play. I miss being a kid and being here reminds me of being a kid. We played hide and go seek outside and it was tons of fun!! I love kid games.
I am trying to scooter but I am not being that successful. Each day I get better and better but its hard. I was never able to really do sports before or too much physical activity but now that I can I love it. I cant wait to get to goal and be able to run really fast actually have my clothes fit me.
We will see what tomorrow has in store. This weekend is going by sooo fast and next week for school is going to be sooo busy.
Its soo weird not having tv. They have a tv and antenna but it doesnt work so well so all we watch is movies if anything. Its weird when I am bored I cant just turn on the tv. I usually just listen to my mp3 player. It is weird staying in a house that isnt yours but this house is sooo pretty could be bigger because my uncle designed it and built most of it himself.
Ok I am running out things to say time to go to bed and listen to music :)
I am trying to scooter but I am not being that successful. Each day I get better and better but its hard. I was never able to really do sports before or too much physical activity but now that I can I love it. I cant wait to get to goal and be able to run really fast actually have my clothes fit me.
We will see what tomorrow has in store. This weekend is going by sooo fast and next week for school is going to be sooo busy.
Its soo weird not having tv. They have a tv and antenna but it doesnt work so well so all we watch is movies if anything. Its weird when I am bored I cant just turn on the tv. I usually just listen to my mp3 player. It is weird staying in a house that isnt yours but this house is sooo pretty could be bigger because my uncle designed it and built most of it himself.
Ok I am running out things to say time to go to bed and listen to music :)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thanksgiving
Today was such a great day with a great family!! I had a blast with my cousins. We played baseball a lot today and I did good. We were also playing with scooters lets just say I go as slow as a snail because I dont want to fall. I am freeeeeezzzzinnngggg its its 40 something degrees and I am soooo cold. I even have socks on and if you know me I am not a sock person. I am not a show person I love sandals.
Thanksgiving isnt the same anymore I miss my grandma she was the matriarch of the family. She was the glue. Now without her its not the same. I feel like my thoughts about her and my memories are fading. My grandma never got to see my uncles finished house or anything. I miss her hugs a lot right now. But I still remember what it feels like. When I was cold she used to hold me and make me warm because she would wear flannel jackets and give me tons of blankets to stay warm. I have my grandpa but he plays a different role in my life. I look to him and see the guy I want to marry, someone who is soo Godly but sweet and isnt afraid to cry. My grandpa and I have a great relationship but hes not my grandma. Sometimes this is soo hard to get through the holidays with out her. I know somedays I talk about it a lot but she was my everything. It will never be the same way again.
One thing I truly love up here is it actually being dark there arent even street lights. God is sooo awesome. I was outside on the phone and I could see the stars. I saw the little dipper. Stars are awesome!! I wish I could go sit outside on a blanket and put on some music but I kinda cant because I would freeze to death.
If anyone knows me they know I talk A LOT!! But this verse stuck out to me in my devotional. Dont worry what you'll say. When the time comes , say whats on your heart. The holy spirit will make his witness through you. Mark 13:11 Lately I have been following what God is doing in my heart it is really hard. Sometimes I do admit to try to fight it but I give in with God. It is a situation my heart and I have been fighting with. I want something else somedays but I always end up chosing Gods way when I start to think what I want and what God wants.
Well I am going to relax before bed I am most likely waking up at 7 am again!!!!
Thanksgiving isnt the same anymore I miss my grandma she was the matriarch of the family. She was the glue. Now without her its not the same. I feel like my thoughts about her and my memories are fading. My grandma never got to see my uncles finished house or anything. I miss her hugs a lot right now. But I still remember what it feels like. When I was cold she used to hold me and make me warm because she would wear flannel jackets and give me tons of blankets to stay warm. I have my grandpa but he plays a different role in my life. I look to him and see the guy I want to marry, someone who is soo Godly but sweet and isnt afraid to cry. My grandpa and I have a great relationship but hes not my grandma. Sometimes this is soo hard to get through the holidays with out her. I know somedays I talk about it a lot but she was my everything. It will never be the same way again.
One thing I truly love up here is it actually being dark there arent even street lights. God is sooo awesome. I was outside on the phone and I could see the stars. I saw the little dipper. Stars are awesome!! I wish I could go sit outside on a blanket and put on some music but I kinda cant because I would freeze to death.
If anyone knows me they know I talk A LOT!! But this verse stuck out to me in my devotional. Dont worry what you'll say. When the time comes , say whats on your heart. The holy spirit will make his witness through you. Mark 13:11 Lately I have been following what God is doing in my heart it is really hard. Sometimes I do admit to try to fight it but I give in with God. It is a situation my heart and I have been fighting with. I want something else somedays but I always end up chosing Gods way when I start to think what I want and what God wants.
Well I am going to relax before bed I am most likely waking up at 7 am again!!!!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I have arrived in JAX!!
I am in Jacksonville Florida actually I lied I am in middleburg but no one knows where that is. I should be asleep the cousins are going to want to get up at like 7 and play but I cant sleep. We had a good drive it took a really long time because of traffic and stuff. But when we got here it was 40 degrees. Funny thing is I wasnt that cold maybe its because I am wearing my sweats that I love.
I watched 3 movies in the car it was fun got me through the time. I tend to watch romantic comedies which got me thinking tonight about flowers(I was also sitting by flowers) I lvoe gerber daises or regular daises they are simple and pretty. Those are my favorites.
I am looking forward to time with the family. I love my family. We all have the same beliefs and all get along. There is no bad language going on its good clean fun and my family knows how to have fun. We can make fun out of anything. My dad brought all his funny jokes like the gorilla mask and other things. I cant believe my cousin is 14 now and 5'6 I am 5'4 wow that is gonna be nuts when I wake up and stand up net to her. She isnt my little baby cousin anymore she is all grown up in the 8th grade Its nuts. My other ones luckily are still shorter than me.
These four days should be fun and interesting. I should have time to write on here when I am bored at night. hmmm Idk if I should fall asleep to my music. Probably not.
im getting cold now. time for sleep!!! I love my air mattress its sooo comfy!!!!
I watched 3 movies in the car it was fun got me through the time. I tend to watch romantic comedies which got me thinking tonight about flowers(I was also sitting by flowers) I lvoe gerber daises or regular daises they are simple and pretty. Those are my favorites.
I am looking forward to time with the family. I love my family. We all have the same beliefs and all get along. There is no bad language going on its good clean fun and my family knows how to have fun. We can make fun out of anything. My dad brought all his funny jokes like the gorilla mask and other things. I cant believe my cousin is 14 now and 5'6 I am 5'4 wow that is gonna be nuts when I wake up and stand up net to her. She isnt my little baby cousin anymore she is all grown up in the 8th grade Its nuts. My other ones luckily are still shorter than me.
These four days should be fun and interesting. I should have time to write on here when I am bored at night. hmmm Idk if I should fall asleep to my music. Probably not.
im getting cold now. time for sleep!!! I love my air mattress its sooo comfy!!!!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Tuesday 10
1. Fun adventures my friends take me on
2. Even though I dont like my job too much right now I am happy to have a job during this tough economy.
3. My cat because she makes me smile even though shes mean.
4. My parents always taking my around the country and showing me the heart of the US even when we dont have much money.
5. My humor. Laughing gets me through the day :)
6. My 1988 oldsmobile. It is the same age as me how many people can say that?
7. That my best guy friend asked me to be in his wedding and there are only 4 bridesmaids and I dont know the bride it made me really happy that they thought of me.
8. Wade Thomas even though he never writes me he has done amazing things helping me with my weight loss
9. For my church family they mean the world to me and make me smile knowing they will always be there for be no matter what. I have brothers and sisters in Christ who love me!!
10. My new diffuser for my hair it makes my hair look good. :)
Remeber I cant repeat!!
2. Even though I dont like my job too much right now I am happy to have a job during this tough economy.
3. My cat because she makes me smile even though shes mean.
4. My parents always taking my around the country and showing me the heart of the US even when we dont have much money.
5. My humor. Laughing gets me through the day :)
6. My 1988 oldsmobile. It is the same age as me how many people can say that?
7. That my best guy friend asked me to be in his wedding and there are only 4 bridesmaids and I dont know the bride it made me really happy that they thought of me.
8. Wade Thomas even though he never writes me he has done amazing things helping me with my weight loss
9. For my church family they mean the world to me and make me smile knowing they will always be there for be no matter what. I have brothers and sisters in Christ who love me!!
10. My new diffuser for my hair it makes my hair look good. :)
Remeber I cant repeat!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Sundays are great
I love Sundays and coming on my blog and writing what I learn.
In Sunday School we talked about situations where you go back and think why is this happening, how did I ever get invovled in this, etc. Lately I have been thinking about that with a certain situation. Thinking why did God ever do that to me. But in the end it is His plan and what He wants. We are going through Esther now and in Esther they dont talk about prayer or anything they do mention fasting though. But God had a plan for Esther. He made her beautiful for a reason. So this little situation that I am uncertain about I know God is going to use it to show me stuff. He already has and I have learned many things from it. I understand why He put this situation in my life now and it has changed me forever!!!
Then I go into church and we are singing For The Beauty of The Earth and that song always reminds me of Little Women the old version when they all sing together. I love that movie and Christian Bale has changed so much from that movie.
The sermon was on Thanks. We need to give thanks no matter what. Even if problems get thrown our way. Thanking God is just the right thing to do. God knows when we are grateful and ungrateful. Pastor challenged us to say 10 things we are thankful for which I did last week. He took it from someone on facebook like I did. I am going to try to do it every week but I cant repeat. Its weird when I open something someone has given me I am soo thankful but it never shows on my face. I never know how to epress myself when I open a gift but I am sooo thankful. I dont like getting gifts I love giving gifts first!!!
In Sunday School we talked about situations where you go back and think why is this happening, how did I ever get invovled in this, etc. Lately I have been thinking about that with a certain situation. Thinking why did God ever do that to me. But in the end it is His plan and what He wants. We are going through Esther now and in Esther they dont talk about prayer or anything they do mention fasting though. But God had a plan for Esther. He made her beautiful for a reason. So this little situation that I am uncertain about I know God is going to use it to show me stuff. He already has and I have learned many things from it. I understand why He put this situation in my life now and it has changed me forever!!!
Then I go into church and we are singing For The Beauty of The Earth and that song always reminds me of Little Women the old version when they all sing together. I love that movie and Christian Bale has changed so much from that movie.
The sermon was on Thanks. We need to give thanks no matter what. Even if problems get thrown our way. Thanking God is just the right thing to do. God knows when we are grateful and ungrateful. Pastor challenged us to say 10 things we are thankful for which I did last week. He took it from someone on facebook like I did. I am going to try to do it every week but I cant repeat. Its weird when I open something someone has given me I am soo thankful but it never shows on my face. I never know how to epress myself when I open a gift but I am sooo thankful. I dont like getting gifts I love giving gifts first!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Feel like writing
For once I am not tired and feel like writing my feelings. My weight went up this week and I am not happy at all but I know lately I have been making mistakes that have been affecting my weight. I have been on this diet which is now my life a long time and it is getting tiring doing the same thing but it is my life and I need to get back on track.
Its weird I tell my friends when my weight goes up o yea no biggie I am getting my haircut so my weight will go down but relly on the inside I hurt. I want my weight loss to be how when I started loosing 2 lbs a week. But it wont go back to that. Now it is moving slower which I need to start controlling better what I eat.
My friend did this talent show thing tonight and got totally ridiculed by the judges and I felt soo bad for her but then it made me think of my old days when I was bigger. Weighing my heaviest weight I had to go in front of church when I graduated for graduation sunday and I tripped up the steps because I was sooo big in front of my church family and that hurt a lot. When I was in highschool going through the hallways having boys being jerks and tapping me on the shoulder and saying see that guy over there he wants to go out with you. Totally getting made fun of by the way I looked. It never bothered my much when I was younger and now looking back it still doesnt because I know I had the best friends in the world who didnt care how I looked and stood up for me in school. I mean I had some bad moments like not fitting in the desks and trying to fit down aisles of desks and trying to get through people. Those days were sometimes hard and my mom didnt even know I was made fun of for being fat. Thats why I want to teach kids that no one should be made fun of and they need to be healthy. Those days are over and now I am healthy and getting healthier daily. Wow writing those feelings helped and gave me memories of those days but looking back as a lesson learned.
God is sooo awesome I read this bible verse tonight!!!!
The Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. —1 Samuel 16:7
Its weird I tell my friends when my weight goes up o yea no biggie I am getting my haircut so my weight will go down but relly on the inside I hurt. I want my weight loss to be how when I started loosing 2 lbs a week. But it wont go back to that. Now it is moving slower which I need to start controlling better what I eat.
My friend did this talent show thing tonight and got totally ridiculed by the judges and I felt soo bad for her but then it made me think of my old days when I was bigger. Weighing my heaviest weight I had to go in front of church when I graduated for graduation sunday and I tripped up the steps because I was sooo big in front of my church family and that hurt a lot. When I was in highschool going through the hallways having boys being jerks and tapping me on the shoulder and saying see that guy over there he wants to go out with you. Totally getting made fun of by the way I looked. It never bothered my much when I was younger and now looking back it still doesnt because I know I had the best friends in the world who didnt care how I looked and stood up for me in school. I mean I had some bad moments like not fitting in the desks and trying to fit down aisles of desks and trying to get through people. Those days were sometimes hard and my mom didnt even know I was made fun of for being fat. Thats why I want to teach kids that no one should be made fun of and they need to be healthy. Those days are over and now I am healthy and getting healthier daily. Wow writing those feelings helped and gave me memories of those days but looking back as a lesson learned.
God is sooo awesome I read this bible verse tonight!!!!
The Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. —1 Samuel 16:7
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Tuesday Ten
Someone at church started doing this thing called the Tuesday Ten about Thanking God for 10 things every Tuesday.
1. For my amazing family. They always make me laugh. Like tonight my mom was throwing out stuff and my dad is like dont forget Stephanie. They ALWAYS tell jokes.
2. My friends. I have had to drop some friends and I have a close group of core friends who are there for me and know how to help me when I need it.
3. The beautiful weather. Lately it has been such a pretty blue sky and I love it!!
4. The cold weather. It has been chilly even though I have lost weight and I absolutely freeze outside.
5. My book Pure. At first I picked it up thinking it was justa regular book and I got it home and find out its a 90 day devotional. I absolutely love it each night I cant wait to read it.
6. Writing letters because I get the opportunity because a friend of mine is out of country and writing letters help me. Let me tell someone what God is doing in my life and how I feel about stuff going on.
7. My hermit crab is still alive. Usually they die but this one has been alive since my bday!!!
8. The people who I met in my life at church who have moved away. I found these girls who my sis used to babysit on facebook and I miss them soo much our families used to have soo much fun!
9. The gym. Without the gym I wouldnt be where I am with my weight loss.
10. Weight Watchers without weight watchers I dont know where I would be right now.
those are my 10 that was hard.
1. For my amazing family. They always make me laugh. Like tonight my mom was throwing out stuff and my dad is like dont forget Stephanie. They ALWAYS tell jokes.
2. My friends. I have had to drop some friends and I have a close group of core friends who are there for me and know how to help me when I need it.
3. The beautiful weather. Lately it has been such a pretty blue sky and I love it!!
4. The cold weather. It has been chilly even though I have lost weight and I absolutely freeze outside.
5. My book Pure. At first I picked it up thinking it was justa regular book and I got it home and find out its a 90 day devotional. I absolutely love it each night I cant wait to read it.
6. Writing letters because I get the opportunity because a friend of mine is out of country and writing letters help me. Let me tell someone what God is doing in my life and how I feel about stuff going on.
7. My hermit crab is still alive. Usually they die but this one has been alive since my bday!!!
8. The people who I met in my life at church who have moved away. I found these girls who my sis used to babysit on facebook and I miss them soo much our families used to have soo much fun!
9. The gym. Without the gym I wouldnt be where I am with my weight loss.
10. Weight Watchers without weight watchers I dont know where I would be right now.
those are my 10 that was hard.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
A Christian Cake Walk
Today that is what the sermon was on 2 Peter 1:1-11(the text is below)
He was comparing this to cake. How we always need to be adding things to our Christian walk like a cake to make it you cant just leave out something you keep adding ingredients.
1. Moral excellence= flour
When you add moral excellence to your life you are making more inconveinent decisions. There is more of a conviction to do right and avoiding compromises with God.
2. Knowledge= milk
Having the basic knowledge of God is a good thing to have and if you assume you know you dont.
3. Self control=oil
Saying no. Having the ability to say no to things and sticking up for what you believe in. Being about to kinda put this with moral excellence and having the self control saying no this is wrong.
4. Perseverance= baking powder
Hanging in there when life gets tough
5. Godliness=eggs
Life looking more like God.
6. Brotherly Kindness= vanilla
Having warm gentle affection for everyone
7. Love= sugar
agape love that is unconditional for everyone!
Todays sermon taught me a lot on what I already have in these traits and what I need to work on I thought I would share it. I know its long but when I come on here it will remind me. We even got little reminder cards in church on these 7 things. But Pastor said for you to be growing in these things you need to be growing Christ. You will prove you are one of His if you follow these and show you need God. If you need or havent given your life fully to Christ and have been thinking about it anytime is the right time to. If you have questions dont hesistate to ask :)
2 Peter 1:1-11
1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith moral excellence; and to moral excellence, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.
10Therefore, my brothers, be all the more eager to make your calling and election sure. For if you do these things, you will never fall, 11and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
He was comparing this to cake. How we always need to be adding things to our Christian walk like a cake to make it you cant just leave out something you keep adding ingredients.
1. Moral excellence= flour
When you add moral excellence to your life you are making more inconveinent decisions. There is more of a conviction to do right and avoiding compromises with God.
2. Knowledge= milk
Having the basic knowledge of God is a good thing to have and if you assume you know you dont.
3. Self control=oil
Saying no. Having the ability to say no to things and sticking up for what you believe in. Being about to kinda put this with moral excellence and having the self control saying no this is wrong.
4. Perseverance= baking powder
Hanging in there when life gets tough
5. Godliness=eggs
Life looking more like God.
6. Brotherly Kindness= vanilla
Having warm gentle affection for everyone
7. Love= sugar
agape love that is unconditional for everyone!
Todays sermon taught me a lot on what I already have in these traits and what I need to work on I thought I would share it. I know its long but when I come on here it will remind me. We even got little reminder cards in church on these 7 things. But Pastor said for you to be growing in these things you need to be growing Christ. You will prove you are one of His if you follow these and show you need God. If you need or havent given your life fully to Christ and have been thinking about it anytime is the right time to. If you have questions dont hesistate to ask :)
2 Peter 1:1-11
1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith moral excellence; and to moral excellence, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.
10Therefore, my brothers, be all the more eager to make your calling and election sure. For if you do these things, you will never fall, 11and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
God has different plans
This weekend God has different plans for me. I thought I was going to Disney but turns out im not. My friend couldnt go because she has hw/is kinda sick. It is kinda sad but its God's will. I just got to think about it that way :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Feeling better!!
What a little good music does to make you feel better :)
But I found my necklace that was my grandmas. When she had died I asked for a piece of her jewelry and I got a necklace. I know when I wear she is not gonna talk to me but it reminds me of when I am going through just remember what she would tell me. Like she would usually first say it will get better before you get married. She was always there for me in my times of need but since she is gone I have her wise words to come back to. The holiday are coming and its soo hard without her she went through so much in her life and was the head of the family. My grandpa is wise but he is a quiet wise. I spent so much time with her while he was working when I was kid. She even cut my hair and we would go to the mall. I wish I had her here now. I miss her wrinkly skin touching me and telling me it will be ok Stephanie. A grandmothers love is something that is unexplainable. Now that I have no more grandmas its sad. Since my other grandma has ruined our life and made my parents broke. They are going through some rough times. My mom doesnt even have money for Christmas presents so I am going to give her some Visa gift cards to help her out. I know im off topic again and this isnt the reason that I dont understand. God has my parents financial trouble under control. He will provide.
But I found my necklace that was my grandmas. When she had died I asked for a piece of her jewelry and I got a necklace. I know when I wear she is not gonna talk to me but it reminds me of when I am going through just remember what she would tell me. Like she would usually first say it will get better before you get married. She was always there for me in my times of need but since she is gone I have her wise words to come back to. The holiday are coming and its soo hard without her she went through so much in her life and was the head of the family. My grandpa is wise but he is a quiet wise. I spent so much time with her while he was working when I was kid. She even cut my hair and we would go to the mall. I wish I had her here now. I miss her wrinkly skin touching me and telling me it will be ok Stephanie. A grandmothers love is something that is unexplainable. Now that I have no more grandmas its sad. Since my other grandma has ruined our life and made my parents broke. They are going through some rough times. My mom doesnt even have money for Christmas presents so I am going to give her some Visa gift cards to help her out. I know im off topic again and this isnt the reason that I dont understand. God has my parents financial trouble under control. He will provide.
Since right now I dont understand
This song is pretty much how I feel right now about a situation. I have given it to God. Dont worry people its nothing bad just really confusing!!!
I'm Letting Go by Francesca Basttistelli
My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge
Like an acrobat
There's no turning back
(Chorus) I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go
This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace
The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone
(Chorus)
Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me I'm not afraid
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me
I'm Letting Go by Francesca Basttistelli
My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge
Like an acrobat
There's no turning back
(Chorus) I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go
This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace
The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone
(Chorus)
Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me I'm not afraid
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Walking
I dont think I have written about how much I like walking. I love to do hardcore exercising where I burn 700 calories but I also love to walk. I even like walking then writing letters and that says a lot. Walking to me just feels amazing especially lately it is sooo pretty outside. There is a cool breeze and the skies are a bright blue with some clouds. I am so thankful for God's creation. I see tons of wildlife when I walk and it makes me smile. Prayer walking is also amazing because when I walk its just me and Jesus. Today on my walk I saw an earthworm and I hit it with my show because it wasnt moving then went i touched it, it kinda was hard and dead. I was sooo scared I jumped. Then I saw a few more and I was like ewwwwww. Sometimes I see dead things like birds and stuff and I usually jump. Yes I am a jumper when something scares me. You know I dont even need to walk anymore with my intense workouts I dont have to but it is my me time with God and I enjoy it a lot. I pass by my highschool on my 3 mile walk and I think wow I have changed sooo much since highschool. I was walking by today and I was thinking about all the memories made there and all of the classrooms I had classes in. I even pass by my middle school and those days were interesting. God has turned me into such a different woman then what I used to be.
Busy day tomorrow 2 classes. lunch. gym. post office. home. walk. homework. I might be able to squeeze in some sleep. Actually my day doesnt look that busy but it is more intense then what it looks like. I will be smiling all thoughout the day though like usual!! :) I think I got off topic again whoops im just really tired.
Busy day tomorrow 2 classes. lunch. gym. post office. home. walk. homework. I might be able to squeeze in some sleep. Actually my day doesnt look that busy but it is more intense then what it looks like. I will be smiling all thoughout the day though like usual!! :) I think I got off topic again whoops im just really tired.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Sleepy
I am extremely sleepy at this moment right now but I feel like writing. I am listening to the Steven Curtis Chapman cd so I can learn the words to the cd. I was listening to the song One Heartbeat at a Time. I know this song isnt probably about the way I think about it but songs are supposed to mean something different to everyone. This song reminds me of simple things like how when I tell someone how much weight I lost it motivates them to loose weight. I do it in the simplest ways to people who I see need to loose weight it is a very hard thing for me to do. But I do it because being fat isnt fun. I try and spread how losing weight can be acheived and being able to eat the foods you want. My favorite part of the song is
You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile.
If you know me I am always smiling I love to smile I am barely sad, I barely cry. That is my Smiley Steph. When someone is sad I will do everything in my power to make them smile if it includes making them a retarted picture or putting cheerios up their nose. But anyone can change the world. I know many people who are changing the world literally on the other side of the world. Which I am so proud and God is doing amazing things over there. I want to change the world I know I will one day. I am hoping to be on tv one day with my weight loss and do stuff with that. Weight issues dont only effect America other countries have people who are overweight. People always hear my weightloss sucess and are like what is your secret I want to share it and tell the world.
I am rambling because I think I need sleep now and let me sleep before I say anything stupid.
You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile.
If you know me I am always smiling I love to smile I am barely sad, I barely cry. That is my Smiley Steph. When someone is sad I will do everything in my power to make them smile if it includes making them a retarted picture or putting cheerios up their nose. But anyone can change the world. I know many people who are changing the world literally on the other side of the world. Which I am so proud and God is doing amazing things over there. I want to change the world I know I will one day. I am hoping to be on tv one day with my weight loss and do stuff with that. Weight issues dont only effect America other countries have people who are overweight. People always hear my weightloss sucess and are like what is your secret I want to share it and tell the world.
I am rambling because I think I need sleep now and let me sleep before I say anything stupid.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Waiting
Wow so again I learn something new everynight!! I was talking to my friend in the car tonight and come home and read my devotion and the title is Waiting. We all are waiting for something or always have to wait for something everday if its traffic or in the grocery store. But sometimes we just need to be patient. What we wait for, however, is far less important than what God is doing while we wait. In such times He works in us to develop those hard-to-achieve spiritual virtues of meekness, kindness, and patience with others. But more important, we learn to lean on God alone and to “rejoice and be glad” in Him. I know God is doing amazing things in my life right now while I wait. I see it everyday I am growing in Him everyday and I absolutely love it. Tonight definitly has opened my eyes a lot!! Patience is definitly something I am trying to get better. I know God is faithful and will always provide and I know He has amazing plans for me. I am kinda using this verse as my staple verse all the time now:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you saith the Lord thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Jeremiah 29:11
I also have been loving Proverbs I need to go back through and read all of it but this is also another one of my faves.
For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it.
Proverbs 8:11
Just thought I would mention it. Wow I love this Steven Curtis Chapman cd!!! So amazing I think Cinderella is my fave song <3
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you saith the Lord thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Jeremiah 29:11
I also have been loving Proverbs I need to go back through and read all of it but this is also another one of my faves.
For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it.
Proverbs 8:11
Just thought I would mention it. Wow I love this Steven Curtis Chapman cd!!! So amazing I think Cinderella is my fave song <3
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
double edged sword
In my devotion tonight I read something very interesting that I have known for most of my life by I saw it in such a different light.
Hebrew 4:11-16
11Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.
12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Jesus the Great High Priest 14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
How many times have a heard this and even holding up my Bible at church saying the Bible is my sword. I am trying to memorize as much verse I can so when people say things to me I can come back with biblical answers. When I was little we switched churches when I was 5 and at the church we left they did a lot on memorizing verses and then the next church we went to didnt. My brother and sister are sooo good at it and I want to get better. They did bible drills but I never got to do them.
I like what it says in my Bible it says for verse 14 For the word of God is QUICK, AND POWERFUL, AND SHARPER than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit and of the joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts ad intents of the heart. I have the KJV version because thats what my mom got me and I dont mind it at first I was like I kinda like NKJV but thats what my mom got me because thats what she grew up with. I like to read the old school words and sit there and try to figure out what they say. Like in sunday school when we were going through 2 Kings and talking about the deadly stew it was soo funny. I have come to love Kings we have been going through all of it in sunday school and it is soo interesting all the stories I have learned soooo much.
I <3 going through God's word :)
Hebrew 4:11-16
11Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.
12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Jesus the Great High Priest 14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
How many times have a heard this and even holding up my Bible at church saying the Bible is my sword. I am trying to memorize as much verse I can so when people say things to me I can come back with biblical answers. When I was little we switched churches when I was 5 and at the church we left they did a lot on memorizing verses and then the next church we went to didnt. My brother and sister are sooo good at it and I want to get better. They did bible drills but I never got to do them.
I like what it says in my Bible it says for verse 14 For the word of God is QUICK, AND POWERFUL, AND SHARPER than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit and of the joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts ad intents of the heart. I have the KJV version because thats what my mom got me and I dont mind it at first I was like I kinda like NKJV but thats what my mom got me because thats what she grew up with. I like to read the old school words and sit there and try to figure out what they say. Like in sunday school when we were going through 2 Kings and talking about the deadly stew it was soo funny. I have come to love Kings we have been going through all of it in sunday school and it is soo interesting all the stories I have learned soooo much.
I <3 going through God's word :)
Pretty good day!!
I went to the gym today burned 600 calories. I got up to a level 14 :)!! I work my behiny off but the best part about it is im praising God all the way through it!! It feels sooo good to listen to worship music and just doing it for God. I need to be healthy my body is a temple. Its crazy how much I have changed 130 pounds!! Thats the weight of my friends!! I am shrinking as we speak and its really exciting. It is kinda scary but exciting because this weight loss has helped me sooo much emotionally and physically. When I go through turnstiles I actually fit!!
I found out today I only have 14 classes left!! How exciting but I dont know what im going to do after I am leaving that upto God. I am really upto whatever God has in store. I might go for my masters right after in 12 months if they give me a good schloarship. With my degree in business administration I can basically do whatever I want. I really dont know what is going to happen after my bachelors but I will be praying about it.
While I wait I will just keep reading Jeremiah 29:11-13
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Thats all I wanted to write I think I was going to write more but I forgot. Thats odd because I told someone today I have a good memory but only on things I want to remember I guess.
I found out today I only have 14 classes left!! How exciting but I dont know what im going to do after I am leaving that upto God. I am really upto whatever God has in store. I might go for my masters right after in 12 months if they give me a good schloarship. With my degree in business administration I can basically do whatever I want. I really dont know what is going to happen after my bachelors but I will be praying about it.
While I wait I will just keep reading Jeremiah 29:11-13
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Thats all I wanted to write I think I was going to write more but I forgot. Thats odd because I told someone today I have a good memory but only on things I want to remember I guess.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Everything is going by so fast
Today I signed up for classes but I am still going to meet with my advisor on Wednesday. Wow it goes by soo fast. I only have 3 semesters left and I am getting a more idea of what I want to do as days go by. I am really praying about things to see what God puts in my future. I am taking a sports management class and the professor makes it soo interesting. I would love to work for a major sports team working behind the scenes doing something with the community invovlement or something. I really want to open my fat camp one day and I might be able to get more help from the sports community. Shaq did Shaq's big challenge down here with helping kids loose weight. I have a passion now for nutrition too I really need to be praying over these things. Thanksgiving is almost here and then Christmas then 2009 begins. My future is coming really fast and what I want to do and I need a full time job after school to pay for my loans. But I dont just want a typical office business job. I want something that I can help people. I have loved sports all my life and I would love to work for the Marlins or Panthers working in the coummunity invovlement. I am in a marketing class and marketing is ok but its not my passion. Now I see that this is all coming I am going to be praying to see what God's plan is. I have no idea want He wants me to do I just know it is all in His hands :)
I dont know why lately I have been enjoying writing sooo much :)
I dont know why lately I have been enjoying writing sooo much :)
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Image
Well I learn more and more from scripture and from books I read.
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine
Isaiah 43:1
Tonight in my devotional about Rebecca St. James it was about what all girls struggle with, body image. Which is something I kind of struggle with this morning. Then I came home and on Lifetime two movies were on To Be Fat Like Me and Queen Sized which are both about fat girls. I even went on a walk and I kind of wear some shorts that show my flab on legs and I was walking by people and I was worried they are always looking at my legs which are getting better but to me they dont look the best. It something that I dont like. But it should matter God loves me no matter what. God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him. She said to put that on a mirror but my mirror/door to closet kinda got off the hinge so I cant do that but I am going to try to remember it.
She also talks about how your body is a temple where they talk about that in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20. Before I was on my diet my body was not a temple I would eat everything that looked good and not care. Now I am hooked on eating good and I know my body is a temple to God. I am doing this all for God He gets all the glory in this. Sometimes I go through issues of body image just like other girls and people but now I know no more of that because to God I am beautiful and thats all I need. :) God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him.
Writing has become my new passion when I find a cool bible verse or something to share with people. I am trying to write better and use proper grammar because hopefully one day I will be able to help girls with body image issues and maybe even write a book. :)
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine
Isaiah 43:1
Tonight in my devotional about Rebecca St. James it was about what all girls struggle with, body image. Which is something I kind of struggle with this morning. Then I came home and on Lifetime two movies were on To Be Fat Like Me and Queen Sized which are both about fat girls. I even went on a walk and I kind of wear some shorts that show my flab on legs and I was walking by people and I was worried they are always looking at my legs which are getting better but to me they dont look the best. It something that I dont like. But it should matter God loves me no matter what. God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him. She said to put that on a mirror but my mirror/door to closet kinda got off the hinge so I cant do that but I am going to try to remember it.
She also talks about how your body is a temple where they talk about that in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20. Before I was on my diet my body was not a temple I would eat everything that looked good and not care. Now I am hooked on eating good and I know my body is a temple to God. I am doing this all for God He gets all the glory in this. Sometimes I go through issues of body image just like other girls and people but now I know no more of that because to God I am beautiful and thats all I need. :) God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him.
Writing has become my new passion when I find a cool bible verse or something to share with people. I am trying to write better and use proper grammar because hopefully one day I will be able to help girls with body image issues and maybe even write a book. :)
Always learning something
I think God is always trying to teach me something. Since today we "fell back" with the time change I was really tired and all confused this morning and kinda slept in for church. I didn't like the dress I put on and I was running late so there was no time to change. I put on my makeup and my eyeliner wasnt cooperating today. I went out the door thinking I dont look good. Then I get to church go to sunday school and talk with people before church starts. While playing the music to get people to start sitting down this 90 year old lady comes up to me, Betty Thacker. She says in an old lady voice, "I just wanted to tell you that you look great and are doing so good loosing weight." I just had to thank God because lately I been feeling like no one really mentions my weight loss anymore. I kinda look the same. No more drastic changes like before I just have a whole bunch of flab which I am hoping will tone up.
I also heard pastor say something this morning that really was a wake up call. He said,"We arent guarenteed a receptive culture." This week I learned that the hard way from some people who are really close to me. I have been constantly changing and reading bible verses and trying to become a set apart woman. I have no desire to watch certain things or listen to certain music anymore and find out some of my friends thoughts on it and it really hurt. But all I can do is pray for them. I have found myself praying all the time now. When someone or something that needs prayer I just pray. It feels good. God is a great God and will always be there for me. Since August while trying to pay my school bill I found out I need to be patient and know that everything is in God's hands. Just like this election which I am glad it will be over on Tuesday and whatever happens is in God's hands just like my little situation.
I know I ramble and get off topic but thats me. I just write my thoughts as I go.
:)
I also heard pastor say something this morning that really was a wake up call. He said,"We arent guarenteed a receptive culture." This week I learned that the hard way from some people who are really close to me. I have been constantly changing and reading bible verses and trying to become a set apart woman. I have no desire to watch certain things or listen to certain music anymore and find out some of my friends thoughts on it and it really hurt. But all I can do is pray for them. I have found myself praying all the time now. When someone or something that needs prayer I just pray. It feels good. God is a great God and will always be there for me. Since August while trying to pay my school bill I found out I need to be patient and know that everything is in God's hands. Just like this election which I am glad it will be over on Tuesday and whatever happens is in God's hands just like my little situation.
I know I ramble and get off topic but thats me. I just write my thoughts as I go.
:)
Friday, October 31, 2008
I dont know what to put for a title
Hiiii everyone. I had a pretty good night. There is a verse I have been hearing since I was kid. In Deuteronomy 6:5-6
5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts.
I have heard this verse my whole life and tonight I saw it in a different light. :) and it made me smile.
So one kid tonight said to me when I was standing on the truck in my gorrilla mask "Are you King Kong?" I was like yes. But I was thinking if I had put on that mask 2 years ago I would have really looked like King Kong. I have changed soooo much. The only thing I dont like is my extra flab. I always think people are looking at it. I cant wait when I loose two more pounds I am going to weigh what I want to loose. How weird. I will be able to carry the weight that is going to go away. Going to be very weird.
My sis is away tonight I miss her and my cat. I keeping thinking hes alive and hes not :(
5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. 6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts.
I have heard this verse my whole life and tonight I saw it in a different light. :) and it made me smile.
So one kid tonight said to me when I was standing on the truck in my gorrilla mask "Are you King Kong?" I was like yes. But I was thinking if I had put on that mask 2 years ago I would have really looked like King Kong. I have changed soooo much. The only thing I dont like is my extra flab. I always think people are looking at it. I cant wait when I loose two more pounds I am going to weigh what I want to loose. How weird. I will be able to carry the weight that is going to go away. Going to be very weird.
My sis is away tonight I miss her and my cat. I keeping thinking hes alive and hes not :(
Thursday, October 30, 2008
better
well this stinks my post got deleted.
its amazing what a little prayer and bible reading can do to make everything better :)
i feel much better :)
its amazing what a little prayer and bible reading can do to make everything better :)
i feel much better :)
i did it
Yes i did i made it 130. i know my blog last night wasnt very happy about my weight loss but it has changed.
The one night something great happens though something bad has to happen. I should be the happiest girl right now I have lost the weight of a young adult and everything gets ruined. My old friend who I had to drop because she was effecting my spiritual life is always trying to get back at me. She is telling people I let my weight loss get to my head and im really not. Loosing this weight has helped me sooo much find myself the real me inside. I was sooo lost for awhile and now I am back in full force. I am not trying to hide anything anymore. My whole purpose in life is to glrify God now. I want to be a set apart women and not like the world. My life isnt about money or pleasing other people its about pleasing God and trying to do everything for Him. I just got to be thinking I can do all thing through Christ who stregthens me. I can do this. I can be happy. Just gotta have faith everything will be ok.
Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall
The one night something great happens though something bad has to happen. I should be the happiest girl right now I have lost the weight of a young adult and everything gets ruined. My old friend who I had to drop because she was effecting my spiritual life is always trying to get back at me. She is telling people I let my weight loss get to my head and im really not. Loosing this weight has helped me sooo much find myself the real me inside. I was sooo lost for awhile and now I am back in full force. I am not trying to hide anything anymore. My whole purpose in life is to glrify God now. I want to be a set apart women and not like the world. My life isnt about money or pleasing other people its about pleasing God and trying to do everything for Him. I just got to be thinking I can do all thing through Christ who stregthens me. I can do this. I can be happy. Just gotta have faith everything will be ok.
Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
My weight
Lately my weight has been annoying me sooo much. So I loose for 3 weeks then I cant make it to 130. Today I worked sooooo hard. I burned 700 calories at the gym, went for my long walk, then went for a short walk with my mom. I ate amazing tonight. I didnt snack bad. I mean it could be because im not eating enough. I am very lost with this all I mean I keep pushing it. The weekends get me everytime. I always get hungry on the weekends. But my weight was doing goo dall weekend. Sometimes I just dont understand I just want to get to goal it has been a long two years. But I am also kinda scared that once I get to the end I wont keep it up thats why I have to go to meetings for the rest of my life. I know I can do this I am just praying my weight goes down. I really think God is trying to teach me patience. I could use more of it but I thought I have been good at being patient.
I have been enjoying the cool weather :) I woke up this morning to 55 degree weather. I was freezing but it felt soooooo good.
Lets hope I make it to loosing 130 lbs tomorrow. wow 130 lbs I cant believe how close I am!! ahhhhhhhhh soo exciting!!
I have been enjoying the cool weather :) I woke up this morning to 55 degree weather. I was freezing but it felt soooooo good.
Lets hope I make it to loosing 130 lbs tomorrow. wow 130 lbs I cant believe how close I am!! ahhhhhhhhh soo exciting!!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Better day
So it has been a better day. I am still sad about my cat I barely slept last night I fell asleep crying and holding my turtle. I am starting to remember the good things about it but its really hard. I came home after work and going to the gym and had to come home without him being here that was hard. But our other cat Angel she looks sooo sad. She is sitting by the door to the backyard where he is buried.
I am so thankful for this beautiful day God has given us today. It is a crisp 64 degrees. I am shocked it is soo cold so early. But I love it :)
I am so thankful for this beautiful day God has given us today. It is a crisp 64 degrees. I am shocked it is soo cold so early. But I love it :)
Monday, October 27, 2008
Icecream
Yep my cats name is Icecream, well was icecream... it was his time to go tonight. I will sure miss him. He was a good kitty. He was found in Jacksonville by a McDonalds dumpster when my dad went to go get icecream. So then we brought him all the way down to south florida and he became the king of the house. He loved table food and cat nip at christmas. My dad even used to play spin the cat when he was younger. He was such a pretty siamese cat. I know this might sound weird me writing something about my cat but he was with us for 14 years and meant a lot to our family. Ill miss him!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Praise God!!!
Today has just been an awesome day!!! First I go on my school email and find out that the school gave me a $500 schloarship because of all the stuff I have had to go through and they are trying to find me more funding!! God is sooo good I was getting sooo worried and trying to be I know God will provide and it was really hard and today he provided some money!!! Today has just been an awesome day!!
Then we take the cat to the vet wondering if he was dying. well hes not dying he has 2 lbs of fluid in his stomach!! but he is old so we have to keep an eye on him. I have been praying for my cat so has my whole family. he has been apart of family since november 94. I am soo glad he doesnt have anything bad!!
my devotion tonight was on giving thanks how fitting!!!
Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.
10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.
13 to him who divided the Red Sea [a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.
16 to him who led his people through the desert,
His love endures forever.
17 who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel;
His love endures forever.
23 to the One who remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies,
His love endures forever.
25 and who gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.
Then we take the cat to the vet wondering if he was dying. well hes not dying he has 2 lbs of fluid in his stomach!! but he is old so we have to keep an eye on him. I have been praying for my cat so has my whole family. he has been apart of family since november 94. I am soo glad he doesnt have anything bad!!
my devotion tonight was on giving thanks how fitting!!!
Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.
10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.
13 to him who divided the Red Sea [a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.
16 to him who led his people through the desert,
His love endures forever.
17 who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel;
His love endures forever.
23 to the One who remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies,
His love endures forever.
25 and who gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.
Friday, October 10, 2008
An Amazing night
Tonight I was home alone which I was sad about because I dont like being home alone but tonight I wasnt sad because I read a Psaml 91:5-12 in my book about not being afraid I knew God was with me and I had no reason to worry. I know I knew this verse but I never think about when im home alone.
Another awesome thing happened to me tonight I did something I never did before with Jesus. It was such an amazing experience and a very hard thing to do in my house because it is soo small and there are 5 of us and I dont have a spot to myself. I got down on my knees and prayed in the silence. I sat there knowing Jesus was with me listening to me. But I didnt just get on my knees I got really close to the ground. I did that because without Jesus helping me lose every and each pound I would never be able to do that. I was never able to bend now before but because of God's love and faithfulness I have lost 129 pounds and I give all the praise to him. Tonight was an amazing being alone with God. Its undescriable. I love having a relationship with my Savior!! I want to do everything to glorify Him!! I have been reading so many books lately and they always talk about being a Proverbs 31 woman and thats what I want to be. I have found my prince...Jesus. Thats all I need I know he will bring me that special guy someday but I have my prince and that makes me really happy :) I have come to a conclusion that no more searching for that right guy I need to be close to my Prince and He will know who that right guy is for me. That right guy who he gives me will bring up and not down spiritually and emotionally. We both will be close to Jesus and thats what will make the relationship a million times better. This book I am reading now has made me want to be set apart from everyone.
I love you Jesus :) <><
Another awesome thing happened to me tonight I did something I never did before with Jesus. It was such an amazing experience and a very hard thing to do in my house because it is soo small and there are 5 of us and I dont have a spot to myself. I got down on my knees and prayed in the silence. I sat there knowing Jesus was with me listening to me. But I didnt just get on my knees I got really close to the ground. I did that because without Jesus helping me lose every and each pound I would never be able to do that. I was never able to bend now before but because of God's love and faithfulness I have lost 129 pounds and I give all the praise to him. Tonight was an amazing being alone with God. Its undescriable. I love having a relationship with my Savior!! I want to do everything to glorify Him!! I have been reading so many books lately and they always talk about being a Proverbs 31 woman and thats what I want to be. I have found my prince...Jesus. Thats all I need I know he will bring me that special guy someday but I have my prince and that makes me really happy :) I have come to a conclusion that no more searching for that right guy I need to be close to my Prince and He will know who that right guy is for me. That right guy who he gives me will bring up and not down spiritually and emotionally. We both will be close to Jesus and thats what will make the relationship a million times better. This book I am reading now has made me want to be set apart from everyone.
I love you Jesus :) <><
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
It has been a great day!!
Wow God is soooo good. This day has been amazing!! I went to the gym had an awesome workout burning 600 cals. Went home went for a walk and I just walk and say everything is sooo beautiful that God created. I was smiling on my walk because it has been a great day!! Then I go to publix to get dinner and I hear this cd in my sisters car it was amazing. I looked the girl up and she is a christian singer and her songs are good. I like them. This one song gave me a feeling that I cant even explain. I am definitly thinking it was a God thing. I sound like a freak but I cant explain it. Today was a great day!!!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Since I cant post this on facebook
I know I cant put this on facebook without getting yelled at im gonna put it on here and when a friend wants to see it im gonna show them the link.
Today we went bridesmaid dress shopping for my bros wedding! This is kinda the dress it is going to be a different color and the beading a little different. Dont mind my hair i know it looks really poofy.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
My heart hurts
For anyone who knows me well enough when I get the chance to tell someone how much weight I lost I do. I have this huge burdon on my heart when I see someone when I am at work, school, or at the grocery store I want to share about weight watchers. I know how people feel when they walk around and have a lot of extra fat and you just feel like everyone is looking at you. I cant wait to share my story with world. Sometimes I casually mention weight watchers if i get a chance and a way to plug it in. Usually when I talk about calories.
I am soooo grateful for the new me. God has blessed me soo much with this diet. I am changing sooo much. I fit into SMALL shirts. I used to be a 1X and going to a small is just crazy!! I am starting to look different again!! I cant wait till goal I see it coming!!!!!!!
I am soooo grateful for the new me. God has blessed me soo much with this diet. I am changing sooo much. I fit into SMALL shirts. I used to be a 1X and going to a small is just crazy!! I am starting to look different again!! I cant wait till goal I see it coming!!!!!!!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Wow
When I am down in the dumps or am thinking a way I shouldnt God just puts the right verse right in front of me! In my devotion the verse tonight was In James 4:13-17
13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.
The one bolded was the main verse. I have been dealing with an issue on giving up on something. But I need to be thinking "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." I love how God puts the word straight in front of me when im struggling on an issue.
I love you Jesus!!!
13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.
The one bolded was the main verse. I have been dealing with an issue on giving up on something. But I need to be thinking "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." I love how God puts the word straight in front of me when im struggling on an issue.
I love you Jesus!!!
little ms. homemaker
I have enjoyed soo much this week taking care of my mommy when she was sick. I enjoyed making dinners for my parents. Tonight dinner was awesome and I had soo much fun making it. I made hamburgers on the stove and waffle fries!! I love to cook.
I cant wait to find my Boaz and make cute little dinners. Obviously it would be a little more different than the way I make the dinners for my parents. I wouldnt be using paper plates with a big sun smiley face. Well I might because thats just me I always smile. I love doing nice things for people and giving and making special things for my friends it makes me happy :)
I cant wait to find my Boaz and make cute little dinners. Obviously it would be a little more different than the way I make the dinners for my parents. I wouldnt be using paper plates with a big sun smiley face. Well I might because thats just me I always smile. I love doing nice things for people and giving and making special things for my friends it makes me happy :)
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Ugh
I hate playing games with my weight. I went to the gym worked my behiney off burning 600 cals I go home go for a walk. Eat dinner and my weight is up which is normal and I had a good dinner. I mean I did drink water so it makes sense. I didnt eat a bad dinner. I dont like food. It is never nice to me. I am trying to get to goal and its sooo hard sometimes. I want to go back to the days of loosing 2 lbs a week or 1 lb. I know God has the plan and is in control but I just want to get to goal and get this fat off. I am ready but then why do I always mess it up with the food I eat? This diet can be so hard sometimes.
My workouts
My workouts have changed soo much over the past few weeks. My workouts used to be so secular and now they have turned into praising God. I read books that help me learn about that man worth waiting for. When im down in the slumps of my workout ready to quit I turn up a worship song and know that God is there with me every minute helping me push my way through it. Praise you in this storm is one of my fave songs to listen to when im in the slumps. Also set the world on fire is also another one because thats what I want to do. I want to set the world on fire with my weightloss and God combined. I LOVE working out with God by my side!!!
Monday, September 29, 2008
I cant sleep
No one is home in my house and I dont like being home alone so im gonna write.
I love going to the gym. Giving my all on a machine is the most amazing thing. When I get tired and loose motivation I just think I need to do this and I turn up my music a little louder and give it all to God. Its such an amazing feeling burning so many calories. Before I could barely even go on the eliptical and now I can do a level 14 if I want. I love the book im reading at the gym too. I love Boaz he was such a sweet guy I think right now he is my favorite bible character. I cant wait till God puts my Boaz in my life. Maybe he has maybe he hasnt but I know he will. He is faithful and I need to trust in him.
I think my cat is dying. It is very sad. he barely eats anymore. we have had him for a long time.
ok i need sleep i have work tomorrow.
I love going to the gym. Giving my all on a machine is the most amazing thing. When I get tired and loose motivation I just think I need to do this and I turn up my music a little louder and give it all to God. Its such an amazing feeling burning so many calories. Before I could barely even go on the eliptical and now I can do a level 14 if I want. I love the book im reading at the gym too. I love Boaz he was such a sweet guy I think right now he is my favorite bible character. I cant wait till God puts my Boaz in my life. Maybe he has maybe he hasnt but I know he will. He is faithful and I need to trust in him.
I think my cat is dying. It is very sad. he barely eats anymore. we have had him for a long time.
ok i need sleep i have work tomorrow.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
I love going to church. Waking up on a Sunday morning and getting up to go and going to Sunday school and then worship service is amazing. It makes for an amazing week. The people who I can thank for helping me love church is family. With out my parents raising me in a home where we go to church together I wouldnt be who I am today. Well now we all dont drive together but we are there together and sit together. Ever since I was in my mommy's tummy I went to church its not like it makes me a better person or anything but I love it!! When I was a child I have so many memories of all the picnics, sleepovers, GA's, Harvest Fest, Christmas in July, Awana, and so many more events that have been important in my life. Today made me think of how honored I am to have such great parents to give me a life like that. I was praying today asking God to show me what to do in a situation that has been bugging my mind for months now. Then I got my answer the sermon was on God knows the big picture. He knows what is going to happen in the end and that really helped me. I know if I trust in him everything will be fine. I mean I have been doing that lately but knowing that he knows what is going to happen just makes me feel better. :)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I want a Boaz!!
I got this new book about a man worth waiting for finding a Boaz not a bozo. It is amazing. I want a Boaz I was reading the book and then went and read the story of Boaz tonight and it is sooo sweet. I want a guy who would do that for me and care for me like that. I also want to be a proverbs 30 woman. I want to find that special guy who is Godly. I already have my prince Jesus and I know he has him out there for me. I also read authentic Beauty it was such an awesome book. I learned how I need to be close to Jesus all the time. They mention that in this new book too. I have enjoyed reading these books lately at the gym they help sooo much.
I know my Boaz is out there just got to wait for God's timing. While I wait I will enjoy my times with God. I mean I will still have them once I find him but I will be praying and letting God figure out the mushy Boaz stuff.
I know my Boaz is out there just got to wait for God's timing. While I wait I will enjoy my times with God. I mean I will still have them once I find him but I will be praying and letting God figure out the mushy Boaz stuff.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Just a thought
Well I havent written on here in awhile I really should write more but school is kinda busy. I am watching the The 60th Annual Emmy's and it makes me think what makes them so special why do they get to win award. Just for being in a show thats ridiculous. Why do people care so much about celebs. It makes no sense they have nothing to do with my life. In church today Michael Petty preached on Psalm 67 and at one point was talking about how we need to praise God. We are so lucky to even have tv. In other countries they dont even know who God is. We are lucky to have a relationship with him. God is a God of grace!! I love him sooo much anymore than I could love any celeb. I will praise his name for all the days of my life. How can I not praise God, He died for me, paid the price. Just makes you think why do people care so much about clothes and material things when all I need is my Jesus and everything is good. Wait its not just good its AMAZING there is no words to describe. There is a song but I cant remember it goes something like Give me my Jesus. Thats all I want in life.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
im sooo tired and i cant believe school starts on monday and i dont even know how im buy my books. i need money and i hate asking my parents for money because they dont have any.
this weekend is gonna be great its a bffl birthday!!!! its gonna be sooo much fun!! i have a few surprises because shes not getting anything from her parents so i have to give her a guft which its gonna be awesome. i wish i could go back and fix my bday. i wish i could change that whole thing then maybe things would be different right now.
this weekend is gonna be great its a bffl birthday!!!! its gonna be sooo much fun!! i have a few surprises because shes not getting anything from her parents so i have to give her a guft which its gonna be awesome. i wish i could go back and fix my bday. i wish i could change that whole thing then maybe things would be different right now.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
realization
I came to a new realization tonight I need to rely on God more well no rely but let him speak to me more and i need to listen. I have been listening to this song by grace Speak Lord and it has been helping me. I need to focus on God and everything will be ok. God has a plan for me. God knows who that special guy will be in my life who i will oneday marry and I need to think that. Tonight I have been really emotional and thinking will i ever find that someone who will love me for me. I have never had a guy tell me that im pretty or anything except my best friend who is gay but i dont think he is. But all I need to know is God loves me for me and he doesnt look at my looks he has known me before i was born and loved me enough to die for me. Thats all i need is God's love.
Monday, August 18, 2008
cabin fever
It has already started cabin fever. there is no work tomorrow so that means for tonight stay up late and sleep in. i love sleeping in i havent slept in forever. i hope my power doesnt go out. idk what im going to do tomorrow maybe i will do my richard simmons dvd i love richard simmons. its such a good workout and he has helped soo many people. i just dont look at his shorts.
wow school is starting soon it kinda stinks but i am kinda happy only 2 more years left. college flies by sooo fast. wow this night is gonna be long maybe i will watch a movie or something. maybe i will stay up all night idk yet. theres no work so it doesnt really matter.
wow school is starting soon it kinda stinks but i am kinda happy only 2 more years left. college flies by sooo fast. wow this night is gonna be long maybe i will watch a movie or something. maybe i will stay up all night idk yet. theres no work so it doesnt really matter.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
week 91
i am not happy with myself i went up 2 lbs this week and i am not happy. i worked sooo hard exercising this week. i walked like 10 miles from fri to weds and i go up?!? i know this is a long long journey but i need to get to goal. i am sick of the flab. i want to make it goal so i can help people. once i make it goal i can help kids, go on oprah and other tv stations. i just need to get to go for my emotional self. I know God has a plan for me but sometimes its really hard when i wanna get there because it will be 2 years in oct.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
summer
summer is going sooooo great i am having a blast. I love hanging out with my friends and just having to not worry about school. But I cant wait to finish school because then my fat camp plans start rolling. my life is going soo great. God is soo good helping me with my weightloss and giving me a great church family. Everyone is such a support with my weightloss even people who i dont know. But I really wanna make it to goal!!! goal is on my mind lately. The sooner i make it to goal the sooner people notice me. The sooner i can get my plastic surgery on my arms and legs. I hope I loose this week. I have been going through a lot fo self image issues lately i am looking smaller but i have all this flab surrounding me. No one understands how it feels to weigh a lot and look like a human whale to going down to being sooo small. i cant even write down my feelings how it feels to be fat. its a totally different world.
Monday, July 21, 2008
i almost passed out
I decided to go on my normal walk to 90th to stirling to palm then around the island and dont forget about my little trip to the swings. Today it was sooo hott i almost about dehydrated and passed out. i need to start bringing water.
I need to make it to goal weight so i have to push it because i want to get there so bad. when i reach goal so many things can happen like getting to help kids loose weight and sharing ym story with the world!! i see people walking around who need to loose weight and i feel horrible. i want to share my story.
i love weight watchers :)
I need to make it to goal weight so i have to push it because i want to get there so bad. when i reach goal so many things can happen like getting to help kids loose weight and sharing ym story with the world!! i see people walking around who need to loose weight and i feel horrible. i want to share my story.
i love weight watchers :)
Saturday, July 19, 2008
its been awhile...
I really have no clue who reads this but i hope you enjoy lol.
lately i have been going on really long walks during the day and listening to music. I have been dealing with some issues though. I want to get to goal really bad but sometimes its just hard. i still feel like im the fat girl in a smaller body. i feel like most guys are shallow and look at my fat and not me and all that i have accomplished. Sometimes I feel like all guys look at is looks and i need to not think like that because I know God has the right guy out for me. When I walk by groups of people it just feels people look at the fat and sometimes it hurts but I gotta get over it.
I saw batman on friday and I absolutely loved it and today i saw mamma mia which was soooo funny.
summer is going great minus the crazy things i tend to think!
lately i have been going on really long walks during the day and listening to music. I have been dealing with some issues though. I want to get to goal really bad but sometimes its just hard. i still feel like im the fat girl in a smaller body. i feel like most guys are shallow and look at my fat and not me and all that i have accomplished. Sometimes I feel like all guys look at is looks and i need to not think like that because I know God has the right guy out for me. When I walk by groups of people it just feels people look at the fat and sometimes it hurts but I gotta get over it.
I saw batman on friday and I absolutely loved it and today i saw mamma mia which was soooo funny.
summer is going great minus the crazy things i tend to think!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
the old days
A very nice older lady shes not that old from ym old church emailed me happy bday and it brought back soo many memories. We used to be penpals and write to each other even though we lived so close to each other. It was soooo much fun knowing I had a friend in this lady no matter what she was there for me. She was the WMU leader so she headed up GA's a program for girls where you learn about missions around the world. The days of GA sleepovers at Ann's house were soo much fun where we would talk about God and do our nails and go swimming. The days of not worrying about fights with friends because all you did was go to church events.
These days are really hard for me i really miss my grandma it will almost be 2 years and it has been the hardest 2 years of my life not having someone to hold me or tell me its gonna get better before i get married. I mean before I lost her she was basically in a coma but i still could still see her and see her lying there and touch her arm and smell her skin. somedays i think i dont wanna forget all the things she taught me and her smell and her look. I dont know if i should remember with her hair or without her hair. somedays i just need her badly especially now i just wanna talk to her and feel her. when my grandpa went on a trip and we had to go feed the dogs i just wanted to crawl up on her side of the bed and cry. i know shes better but now that its leading up to the 2 years it makes me miss her. I know I will see her again because of the saving grace of God but there is miss that happens. I try to be strong I try not to cry but tonight i just dont know. Being in churches I have lost some amazing women in my life who meant a lot to me like Angie and Annabelle. i had a proper goodbye with my grandma but i never went up to the casket but i knew she was gone because i was there when she left to live in heaven. But I was never a person to question God and say why because i know it was her time. But somedays I wanna go back to the days I was 5 and we would go get her haircut by danielle and go to the mall the days she used to cut my hotdogs up. Or on the way home from going somewhere in her grand marquis we would go to dairy queen and get a dipped cone before they even had blizzards.
i am not depressed just reminiscing. miss you and love you patrica ann soar hope you having a great time being with your daddy :)
These days are really hard for me i really miss my grandma it will almost be 2 years and it has been the hardest 2 years of my life not having someone to hold me or tell me its gonna get better before i get married. I mean before I lost her she was basically in a coma but i still could still see her and see her lying there and touch her arm and smell her skin. somedays i think i dont wanna forget all the things she taught me and her smell and her look. I dont know if i should remember with her hair or without her hair. somedays i just need her badly especially now i just wanna talk to her and feel her. when my grandpa went on a trip and we had to go feed the dogs i just wanted to crawl up on her side of the bed and cry. i know shes better but now that its leading up to the 2 years it makes me miss her. I know I will see her again because of the saving grace of God but there is miss that happens. I try to be strong I try not to cry but tonight i just dont know. Being in churches I have lost some amazing women in my life who meant a lot to me like Angie and Annabelle. i had a proper goodbye with my grandma but i never went up to the casket but i knew she was gone because i was there when she left to live in heaven. But I was never a person to question God and say why because i know it was her time. But somedays I wanna go back to the days I was 5 and we would go get her haircut by danielle and go to the mall the days she used to cut my hotdogs up. Or on the way home from going somewhere in her grand marquis we would go to dairy queen and get a dipped cone before they even had blizzards.
i am not depressed just reminiscing. miss you and love you patrica ann soar hope you having a great time being with your daddy :)
Monday, June 9, 2008
tomorrow i will be 20
The weekend i usually go out so i didnt write anything. I had a great weekend with my bffls. friday i went to brio with tati and her parents because britni had a stomach virus :( but its ok we visited her on saturday :). saturday was fun i worked then hung out with tati'e fam for a bit. sunday i went to church then we went to fuddruckers then shopping with john and alissa. that was fun. I would say y bday weekend was a success but i still ruined it but i cant say why on here.
i am really not a bday person i am more of a giver than a person to likes to get stuff. ever since i lost my grandma i really dont want anything but i want her back but i know i cant have her back until i see her in heaven again.
thats all i feel like writing so goodnight who actually reads this?
i am really not a bday person i am more of a giver than a person to likes to get stuff. ever since i lost my grandma i really dont want anything but i want her back but i know i cant have her back until i see her in heaven again.
thats all i feel like writing so goodnight who actually reads this?
Thursday, June 5, 2008
another day
today was another usual day for me work. i work everyday luckily on saturday i only work till 1:45 compared to working at graduation and getting off really late.
the biggest news came today...JONAS IS COMING IN SEPTEMBER!!!! I love those pure christian boys their music is amazing.
what else to talk about? only 5 more days till the birthday! but dont mind the exclaimation point im not excited i just like exclaimation points!
my life is good and boring i lost .6 lbs this week that made my week amazing. i need to eat great this weekend so i can loose on my bday weekend.
what else to write about? i have no clue im tired. this is fun writing blogs it makes me feel good :)
the biggest news came today...JONAS IS COMING IN SEPTEMBER!!!! I love those pure christian boys their music is amazing.
what else to talk about? only 5 more days till the birthday! but dont mind the exclaimation point im not excited i just like exclaimation points!
my life is good and boring i lost .6 lbs this week that made my week amazing. i need to eat great this weekend so i can loose on my bday weekend.
what else to write about? i have no clue im tired. this is fun writing blogs it makes me feel good :)
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
its me :)
Hi people so its me. 6 more days till my bday. im not excited which i say everyday and i still think i ruined it. im not in the mood to capitalize so deal with it lol.
i went to ambers house tonight for dinner which was fun. i told her about some things i shouldnt have but o well lets hope rumors dont fly. we played ddr which i am horrible at sometimes and tonight was one of those times.
so i should have wrote this last night but i didnt. so im trying to drop this very negative non christian friend of mine but she keeps texting me. i absolutely hate it. her bf decided to show up at our house last ngiht looking for me with his ex con bro ther but my daddy saved me. i dont like his brother he does drugs and isnt a person i want to hang around or i should hang around. why do these people keep bugging me. o wait its not her bf not its her ex b/c they broke up. i just like hanging out with my friends with things in common and who deff love God. My bffls now love God and are amazing.
graduation needs to be over. i dont know if im gonna be able to go to dave and busters sat night now i have to figure it out because you have to be a certain age to get in past a certain time if we cant go we will just go to boomers and then maybe jacksons. but my plans are subject to change and they might not even happen.
time for bed well time to get off this
i went to ambers house tonight for dinner which was fun. i told her about some things i shouldnt have but o well lets hope rumors dont fly. we played ddr which i am horrible at sometimes and tonight was one of those times.
so i should have wrote this last night but i didnt. so im trying to drop this very negative non christian friend of mine but she keeps texting me. i absolutely hate it. her bf decided to show up at our house last ngiht looking for me with his ex con bro ther but my daddy saved me. i dont like his brother he does drugs and isnt a person i want to hang around or i should hang around. why do these people keep bugging me. o wait its not her bf not its her ex b/c they broke up. i just like hanging out with my friends with things in common and who deff love God. My bffls now love God and are amazing.
graduation needs to be over. i dont know if im gonna be able to go to dave and busters sat night now i have to figure it out because you have to be a certain age to get in past a certain time if we cant go we will just go to boomers and then maybe jacksons. but my plans are subject to change and they might not even happen.
time for bed well time to get off this
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