I forgot

So there is this person who has been on my mind to pray for. I feel that they need prayer. It feels like maybe they are searching for something but I don't know yet. Just need to keep being that person who is a good example of who I am and what I believe in. I need to be stronger in what I believe in and know more about the bible. I think if this person came to know the great things that God does for them they would be amazing in the kindgom and do great things. I will be praying for this person!! :)

Why is life like this? I feel so lost at the same time and don't know where to start. People keep getting sick in my family...school is hard as ever and i dont even know where to start with my assignment for this week...I keep doing or saying everything wrong...

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NEED my sister Sanctus Real CD because listening to this non positive junk doesnt help me

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So I haven't wrote in a long time and I had a passion to write and procrastinate on my homework. Its kinda funny because I always fight with my schoolwork, my weight, my job, other issues and there are people out there who are getting diagnosed with cancer and other issues. Like Pastor said at the beginning of the sermon everything that happened last week with members, someone got married, someone lost their mom, someone that morning lost their father, and I think he mentioned some other positive things with it.

All the bad stuff happens we complain but no matter what God is GREAT!!! I really love sunday school and digging into the word of Genesis today I pulled some keys points out of the lesson!! :)

Hmmm watching secret millionaire made me figure out what I want to do with my life....more to come!

humility

Humility
• Pride and humility are issues of life and death

• When you learn humility you get more humble

• Pride is your greatest enemy humility is your greatest friend
-John stotts

James 4:1-10

James 4:6 God is opposed to the proud but gives grace to the humble

James 4:10 humble yourself in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up.

Humility- honestly assessing ourselves in light of Gods perfection

Pride- assessing ourselves independently of God.

Pride will ruin your life. God hates pride. Proverbs 8:13 proverbs 6:16 pride and lying go together. Lying is right up there with murder. God hates lying. Were lying to hide our pride. But Jesus forgives us. Psalm 10:2 proverbs 16:18 Romans 1:28-32

It's a bad thin to think too much of yourself. Pride won't let you to think less of yourself.

We all struggle with pride and going our own way.

Pride is a danger but humility is a blessing

Hate pride run to humility

More thoughts

So I really do need to change someone because I end up hurting people when I do things. That is not what I want to do. Things can also not be explained via blog. But how many more times can I mess up before my friends get sick of me? Or get sick of me talking about my weight? I dont want that. I think I need to tame my tongue a bit. Maybe thats why I have sm because I dont want to say anything stupid to anyone. I dont think I will ever grow up. I thought I did but now it seems different. I tend to mess up everything and stress everyone out. If I have done that I am sorry and I understand if you want to give up on me. I dont know if I sound believable but I am really sorry and mean it from the bottom of my heart.

Thoughts

Today I have been thinking a lot about my weight loss. Ever since I hit losing 140 lbs I have yet to get back to it in fact I went up. For one I think I got scared about being that small. People told me I looked good and said I didn't need to lose anymore. I was enjoying eating on the weekends. I enjoy having the freedom to pick up food and eat it. I am struggling emotionally I have all this stuff going through my head. I think another thing was I met with a friend and they kept saying I was a drama queen and now I live by it. So many people are like your a drama queen and it is not just that one person it is a lot of people. So people call me it so I live it. I have been stressed I would say since August or so. School has been tough. I didn't think it would be this tough. I had an issue with a person I am ultimately happy how it turned out but still inside I am depressed. I think if no one likes me as this tiny girl who cares. I am not thinking about myself because I grew up with people making fun of me. It is all so confusing right now my life. Guess I have to figure it out or I will ballon right back to what I used to weigh.