tired

Work is just getting crazy with graduation I am sick of it. People just keep calling and calling....

I am bummed and no one can fix it :(....

I cant wait till my birthday dinner with the bffls on friday and saturday I am doing nothing I dont think because my one bffl is going to the movies with someone else :(....

long story short i ruined my own bday

****I am not mad at my bffl she can go have fun with her neighbor and I will be fine. I am bummed about something else and me ruining my bday has nothing to do with her****

im soooo tired

I am soo pooped and im watching tv. Work from sunday totally burned me out I guess thats why your not supposed to work on sunday.

I love going to my grandpas house. I love just being there with him and eating lunch and taking naps on the couch. I just feel so relaxed there.

So my birthday is tomorrow it will be one week till my birthday. im not excited. i never get excited over my bday. i think this bday isnt gonna be as good as others but we will see.

well im gonna go watch tv the mole comes on tonight i need to stay awake for it!!!

my weekend

This weekend was pretty good. I got to hang out with my bffls and had fun! Friday I got to go see prince caspian finally and i loved it. Prince caspian is sooooooooo hott but edward is kinda hotter. Saturday I worked then went swimming and took my bffls neighbor kids to the salon that was fun I love little kids I hope im blessed with little kids one day. They are soo much fun since I love having fun all the time but I can eb serious at time. Today I went to sunday school but not church because I had to work because of the health professions division had orientation and they had no one to work so i had to do lab coats and ring people up.

This weekend I went through a little struggle of feeling stupid for things I say. I need to stop doing that. I always say something and then I want to take it back and try to explain myself to that person. But I decided to take those cares and give them to God so byt he next day I was feeling amazing and didnt need to feel as stupid anymore. The sermon last sunday was on worry and giving ti all to God. Unfortunately I got the worry triat from my grandma and mom. I tend to overthink and worry about everything. I am going to stop worrying about things.

I am soo bored its summer and I dont have much to do. Another issue im facing this summer is im missing my grandma a lot when I go through different feelings and things in my life it makes me miss her even more. She used to be my life my everything. I took care of her when she got her cancer till the day she died and i was there. My grandma was a great Godly woman and im trying to live through her because we are soo alike. I wish I had her because she isnt gonna be there for all the great moments in my life. I wish she could see me now and my weight loss she always wanted to me loose weight and now I have lost weight and have become sooo confident. I know she would be proud. I also have my grandpa which he is a big support to me but I still miss her.

all for now im done venting.

I had to get a blogger to track someone down when they go away I guess I will make a blog for myself.

My name is Stephanie I go to NSU and my major is business administration which I have no clue what I am going to do with my degree. My passion is to help kids get healthy. I was obese and made fun of most of my life and I hate seeing children being overweight. One day I will open a fat camp and help children loose weight. God has helped me loose every pound and gets all the glory. Being healthy is my life now and will be forever and ever.

Its summer now and I have nothing special to do. I should clean my room and I need to go to the doctor because I havent been in years. This summer I am just working, relaxing with friends and family.

Its almost my birthday but im not excited i never get excited i like giving really cool gifts than receiving them.

all for now i will write more later!