im sooo tired and i cant believe school starts on monday and i dont even know how im buy my books. i need money and i hate asking my parents for money because they dont have any.

this weekend is gonna be great its a bffl birthday!!!! its gonna be sooo much fun!! i have a few surprises because shes not getting anything from her parents so i have to give her a guft which its gonna be awesome. i wish i could go back and fix my bday. i wish i could change that whole thing then maybe things would be different right now.

realization

I came to a new realization tonight I need to rely on God more well no rely but let him speak to me more and i need to listen. I have been listening to this song by grace Speak Lord and it has been helping me. I need to focus on God and everything will be ok. God has a plan for me. God knows who that special guy will be in my life who i will oneday marry and I need to think that. Tonight I have been really emotional and thinking will i ever find that someone who will love me for me. I have never had a guy tell me that im pretty or anything except my best friend who is gay but i dont think he is. But all I need to know is God loves me for me and he doesnt look at my looks he has known me before i was born and loved me enough to die for me. Thats all i need is God's love.

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ask if you wanna know but each blah means something lol

whyyyy

why is my brain being soo dumb

everyone who reads this is gonna be really confused but I know what i mean and it helps to write on here.

i gotta stop thinking things!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

why am i feeling this way??

i cant feel this way

ughhhhhh

help!!!!

cabin fever

It has already started cabin fever. there is no work tomorrow so that means for tonight stay up late and sleep in. i love sleeping in i havent slept in forever. i hope my power doesnt go out. idk what im going to do tomorrow maybe i will do my richard simmons dvd i love richard simmons. its such a good workout and he has helped soo many people. i just dont look at his shorts.

wow school is starting soon it kinda stinks but i am kinda happy only 2 more years left. college flies by sooo fast. wow this night is gonna be long maybe i will watch a movie or something. maybe i will stay up all night idk yet. theres no work so it doesnt really matter.