So much has changed...

This summer so much has changed about myself and the way I act. I am in grad school now and I am growing strong in the Lord sometimes its hard with that but I know he is there for me. I have been trying to lean on Him in every situation. I feel like I needed to grow up and I did. I am still the fun loving girl who smiles all the time but I have grown up. I know what life is about and I know what I want in life. I want to help people I want to show the love of Jesus in everything I do. I did somethings I am so proud of myself for. I was strong and did somethings I thought I could never do.

This summer my dad went into the hospital with chest pains and it hurt to go see him. I thought I could handle it but I was a mess and I had awesome friends who helped me through it. Then for the past 2 weeks my grandpa isnt doing so swell. It hurts me inside to even think about it. He is my world. I knew one day he would get old and frail and thought I could handle it but I can't. it hurts too much and now I have been working a lot where I can't even go and see him. It really hurts seeing him even. His hugs are getting less stronger but I still feel his love in every hug we have. Why does he have to be so stubborn and not go to the doctor. Trying to be strong for my mom and the family. They don't know how much I hurt inside.