How I feel right now.

Life is crazy now I have 2 weeks left in my first class in grad school towards my MBA. I have changed in the past month. My life has changed I feel funny inside like I have no passion to do anything. I pray about it and I want to feel better I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to be my old self. I have grown up though I feel like a new person but at the same time I want things to go back the way they were in so many situations. I know I am growing no matter what and it feels good sometimes to go through something hard because it just makes me stronger.

Going to church today made me think about things a little different it felt good going to church. The sermon was on truth and love and I think there are areas where I can show love to more people. I have been told some pretty tough truths from people lately and I need to take that and act in a better manner. I hurt I literally hurt sometimes from things that have happened. I don't know what to do. I am really praying about it. I know Jesus is there for me and the song by Starfield Rediscover You is really how I feel and I keep listening to it and it gives me some hope. Its not exactly how I feel but kinda close. I am not burned out on religion. Just everything has changed and I feel like an idiot.

Here are the lyrics.

I need to just admit
my faith is paper thin
I'm feeling so burned out
On religion

I say an empty prayer
I sing a tired song
I need to just admit that the passion's gone

And I want to get it back

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

I want to learn to pray
The way that David prayed
I want my soul to burn when I hear Your name
I want to feel like new
I want to hunger for you
Bring me back to life like only You can do
Cause I don't want to stay the same

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

Lord, I want to be Yours today
I want to know the passion of the saints
And how they were changed

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move

I want to burn for You
Bring me back to life, Jesus
Help me rediscover You