Sleepy

I am extremely sleepy at this moment right now but I feel like writing. I am listening to the Steven Curtis Chapman cd so I can learn the words to the cd. I was listening to the song One Heartbeat at a Time. I know this song isnt probably about the way I think about it but songs are supposed to mean something different to everyone. This song reminds me of simple things like how when I tell someone how much weight I lost it motivates them to loose weight. I do it in the simplest ways to people who I see need to loose weight it is a very hard thing for me to do. But I do it because being fat isnt fun. I try and spread how losing weight can be acheived and being able to eat the foods you want. My favorite part of the song is
You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile.
If you know me I am always smiling I love to smile I am barely sad, I barely cry. That is my Smiley Steph. When someone is sad I will do everything in my power to make them smile if it includes making them a retarted picture or putting cheerios up their nose. But anyone can change the world. I know many people who are changing the world literally on the other side of the world. Which I am so proud and God is doing amazing things over there. I want to change the world I know I will one day. I am hoping to be on tv one day with my weight loss and do stuff with that. Weight issues dont only effect America other countries have people who are overweight. People always hear my weightloss sucess and are like what is your secret I want to share it and tell the world.

I am rambling because I think I need sleep now and let me sleep before I say anything stupid.

Waiting

Wow so again I learn something new everynight!! I was talking to my friend in the car tonight and come home and read my devotion and the title is Waiting. We all are waiting for something or always have to wait for something everday if its traffic or in the grocery store. But sometimes we just need to be patient. What we wait for, however, is far less important than what God is doing while we wait. In such times He works in us to develop those hard-to-achieve spiritual virtues of meekness, kindness, and patience with others. But more important, we learn to lean on God alone and to “rejoice and be glad” in Him. I know God is doing amazing things in my life right now while I wait. I see it everyday I am growing in Him everyday and I absolutely love it. Tonight definitly has opened my eyes a lot!! Patience is definitly something I am trying to get better. I know God is faithful and will always provide and I know He has amazing plans for me. I am kinda using this verse as my staple verse all the time now:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you saith the Lord thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Jeremiah 29:11

I also have been loving Proverbs I need to go back through and read all of it but this is also another one of my faves.
For wisdom is better than rubies; and all the things that may be desired are not to be compared to it.
Proverbs 8:11

Just thought I would mention it. Wow I love this Steven Curtis Chapman cd!!! So amazing I think Cinderella is my fave song <3

double edged sword

In my devotion tonight I read something very interesting that I have known for most of my life by I saw it in such a different light.

Hebrew 4:11-16
11Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.
12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Jesus the Great High Priest 14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

How many times have a heard this and even holding up my Bible at church saying the Bible is my sword. I am trying to memorize as much verse I can so when people say things to me I can come back with biblical answers. When I was little we switched churches when I was 5 and at the church we left they did a lot on memorizing verses and then the next church we went to didnt. My brother and sister are sooo good at it and I want to get better. They did bible drills but I never got to do them.

I like what it says in my Bible it says for verse 14 For the word of God is QUICK, AND POWERFUL, AND SHARPER than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit and of the joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts ad intents of the heart. I have the KJV version because thats what my mom got me and I dont mind it at first I was like I kinda like NKJV but thats what my mom got me because thats what she grew up with. I like to read the old school words and sit there and try to figure out what they say. Like in sunday school when we were going through 2 Kings and talking about the deadly stew it was soo funny. I have come to love Kings we have been going through all of it in sunday school and it is soo interesting all the stories I have learned soooo much.

I <3 going through God's word :)

Pretty good day!!

I went to the gym today burned 600 calories. I got up to a level 14 :)!! I work my behiny off but the best part about it is im praising God all the way through it!! It feels sooo good to listen to worship music and just doing it for God. I need to be healthy my body is a temple. Its crazy how much I have changed 130 pounds!! Thats the weight of my friends!! I am shrinking as we speak and its really exciting. It is kinda scary but exciting because this weight loss has helped me sooo much emotionally and physically. When I go through turnstiles I actually fit!!

I found out today I only have 14 classes left!! How exciting but I dont know what im going to do after I am leaving that upto God. I am really upto whatever God has in store. I might go for my masters right after in 12 months if they give me a good schloarship. With my degree in business administration I can basically do whatever I want. I really dont know what is going to happen after my bachelors but I will be praying about it.

While I wait I will just keep reading Jeremiah 29:11-13

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Thats all I wanted to write I think I was going to write more but I forgot. Thats odd because I told someone today I have a good memory but only on things I want to remember I guess.

Everything is going by so fast

Today I signed up for classes but I am still going to meet with my advisor on Wednesday. Wow it goes by soo fast. I only have 3 semesters left and I am getting a more idea of what I want to do as days go by. I am really praying about things to see what God puts in my future. I am taking a sports management class and the professor makes it soo interesting. I would love to work for a major sports team working behind the scenes doing something with the community invovlement or something. I really want to open my fat camp one day and I might be able to get more help from the sports community. Shaq did Shaq's big challenge down here with helping kids loose weight. I have a passion now for nutrition too I really need to be praying over these things. Thanksgiving is almost here and then Christmas then 2009 begins. My future is coming really fast and what I want to do and I need a full time job after school to pay for my loans. But I dont just want a typical office business job. I want something that I can help people. I have loved sports all my life and I would love to work for the Marlins or Panthers working in the coummunity invovlement. I am in a marketing class and marketing is ok but its not my passion. Now I see that this is all coming I am going to be praying to see what God's plan is. I have no idea want He wants me to do I just know it is all in His hands :)

I dont know why lately I have been enjoying writing sooo much :)

Image

Well I learn more and more from scripture and from books I read.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine
Isaiah 43:1

Tonight in my devotional about Rebecca St. James it was about what all girls struggle with, body image. Which is something I kind of struggle with this morning. Then I came home and on Lifetime two movies were on To Be Fat Like Me and Queen Sized which are both about fat girls. I even went on a walk and I kind of wear some shorts that show my flab on legs and I was walking by people and I was worried they are always looking at my legs which are getting better but to me they dont look the best. It something that I dont like. But it should matter God loves me no matter what. God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him. She said to put that on a mirror but my mirror/door to closet kinda got off the hinge so I cant do that but I am going to try to remember it.

She also talks about how your body is a temple where they talk about that in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20. Before I was on my diet my body was not a temple I would eat everything that looked good and not care. Now I am hooked on eating good and I know my body is a temple to God. I am doing this all for God He gets all the glory in this. Sometimes I go through issues of body image just like other girls and people but now I know no more of that because to God I am beautiful and thats all I need. :) God delights in me. God Cherishes me. I am precious to him.

Writing has become my new passion when I find a cool bible verse or something to share with people. I am trying to write better and use proper grammar because hopefully one day I will be able to help girls with body image issues and maybe even write a book. :)

Always learning something

I think God is always trying to teach me something. Since today we "fell back" with the time change I was really tired and all confused this morning and kinda slept in for church. I didn't like the dress I put on and I was running late so there was no time to change. I put on my makeup and my eyeliner wasnt cooperating today. I went out the door thinking I dont look good. Then I get to church go to sunday school and talk with people before church starts. While playing the music to get people to start sitting down this 90 year old lady comes up to me, Betty Thacker. She says in an old lady voice, "I just wanted to tell you that you look great and are doing so good loosing weight." I just had to thank God because lately I been feeling like no one really mentions my weight loss anymore. I kinda look the same. No more drastic changes like before I just have a whole bunch of flab which I am hoping will tone up.

I also heard pastor say something this morning that really was a wake up call. He said,"We arent guarenteed a receptive culture." This week I learned that the hard way from some people who are really close to me. I have been constantly changing and reading bible verses and trying to become a set apart woman. I have no desire to watch certain things or listen to certain music anymore and find out some of my friends thoughts on it and it really hurt. But all I can do is pray for them. I have found myself praying all the time now. When someone or something that needs prayer I just pray. It feels good. God is a great God and will always be there for me. Since August while trying to pay my school bill I found out I need to be patient and know that everything is in God's hands. Just like this election which I am glad it will be over on Tuesday and whatever happens is in God's hands just like my little situation.

I know I ramble and get off topic but thats me. I just write my thoughts as I go.

:)