Old friends

Tonight I was talking to an old sunday school teacher of mine. I was telling her how my life was going and she is sooo sweet. I was telling her how school was starting and she is like poor baby are you ready. I love her sooo much she is a part of me growing up. Whe I have a problem I can always go to her. Tonight I was just talking to her and telling her some issues going on in my life and she gives me true biblical answers. I have so many people who I have met throughout the years who mean sooo much to me. She was my teacher when I was only 2 years old but it will stay with me the restof my life. I might not fully remember what I learned but I know its in my head. She is also really funny and is always joking around with me and my family. I love you Mrs. Pena and you mean sooo much in my life!!!

I know this is my third post today and must think I am crazy but I love to talk talking is me. Talking is who I am and it makes me smile to talk especially when I am pleasing God. Dont worry with school starting I wont be writing as much.

If you want to listen here is the link it is probably better spoken then what I could write

http://www.newlifeindavie.com/media/sermons/a-new-years-ambition/

First Sunday of 2009

It was the first sunday of the new year and I loved the sermon and gave me a good outlook for the new year.

A New Year's Ambition
Therefore we also have as our ambition whether at home or absent to be pleasing to Him.
2 Corinthians 9

This year it is going to be about pleasing God in everything that I do. I will constantly be asking is this pleasing the Lord? If you are saved it shouldnt matter to you and you want to please Him. When you are saved and Jesus is in your heart you should have a desire to please God. Pleasing God and pleasing people are two different things. You cant please the Lord without Christ, Chris is needed to please God.

When trying to please God:
1. ask for wisdom it pleases God
2. Watch your thoughts. Let my thoughts be pleasing to God. It affects the pleasure of God. Read through the bible and memorize scripture.
3. Pleasing God is tied to sexual purity. sexual immorality isnt pleasing to God.
4. Pleasing God even when we hurt.
5. Please God when we give
6. Please God when we honor our parents.

Pleasing God is something that has to grow and it just doesnt arrive. As you grow in Christ you should be growing in pleasing God and have a desire to do it.
DESIRE TO PLEASE GOD!!

This year I am going to please God in all that I do. Thats what I desire to do because I am growing in Chrst daily. I even got this ring which I am kinda going to use as a reminder of everything that I should do everything to please God. Its kinda like a purity ring but I am wearing it on my left middle finger. I am kinda not thinking of it as a purity ring because I made that promise a long time ago to God and I dont need a ring to tell me. I have nothing against purity rings a lot of my friends have them. Most of my friends who have them their parents gave them to them. I like this ring I got to remind me to be Godly and use it as a reminder not to eat.

Thankful

I was sitting in the truck on the way home thinking which I probably shouldnt have been doing. I was thinking what a great trip I had with my mom, dad, and sister. We had many inside jokes. We didnt stop laughing or telling jokes even when times got stressful because it was really crowded. It was so crowded that we did a conga to get around and my mom was even moving her hips!! I am thankful to have parents who love to take us places and have a great time. I am thankful they always watch out for me and my daddy always tells my mom when there is a curb to pass along the word to watch her step. When I get off a ride he always helps me out and my mom. He is always looking out for us girls. Since my brother doesnt like to participate anymore with us. My parents are sooo cute. I love walking through the parks and watching them hold hands. I know I am lucky to have parents who are still together.

One other thing I really looked upto was my dad in two different restaurants giving a cd to them with the gospel on it. He gets this feeling to give them one and he does. He can so easily share the gospel with people well atleast tell them here is a gift listen to it then pass it on to a friends. I was very proud when I saw him doing that. Having parents like that shows me what I need in my future prince. He needs to be like my dad.

I loved this trip and all the other trip s I have been on in my life. I am thankful to have parents who have showed me all over the US (well the east coast). A lot of it is places I will go back because it is filled with American history and memories.

I love my family and the way they make me laugh!!!

Disney!!

I had such a great day with my sister today!! We got to do all the rides we wanted. It was fun I know I have been to Disney a lto of times but it is sooo much fun being there and going on the rides you used to go on as a kid. If you think about id Disney is such a big mission field. There are people from all over the world. When I was going on the three cabballeros no one barely spoke english. To be a missionary there you need to know a lot of languages. There isnt just the parks either there are the hotels and downtown disney. I really enjoyed just walking around wiht my sis even though it was really busy. I like to people watch and see different kids. When I see a kid who is overweight it breaks my heart though. well time for bed my eyes are closing. I had wayyy too much sugar today!!

I dont know why this situation bugs me so much what I said. Probably because I joke around too much with my friends. I really want them to forgive me and right now I am thinking about that situation again. I think a lot. I get that from my grandma. I just think if I could do it all over I would or even if they would talk to me and see that I am different. God has totally changed my life. I mean there a few things that need to change. like I dont know when to shut my mouth I talk a lot. But tonight the family was joking around in the car and I was sticking my head out the window because someone made a stinky in a very enclosed space. But then I joked around and said a joke that I shouldnt have. TATI I AM SOOOO SORRY!! See I am even writing it on here for everyone to see. Its just when my family jokes it gets me in a joking mood. But I am still sad that I am not allowed over that persons house. If I were to go over again it wouldnt be the same because I am different and I wouldnt act like that anymore. I was just raised in a joking family. I mean come on my grandma used to do the william hung dance. Well I am going to bed I have a long day tomorrow but everyone please be praying for me I need it. I am very sad and think about this everyday. I know I posted one blog but I just had to write again.

Just thinking

I am still sitting in the hotel 6 hours later getting ready to leave for downtown disney. I am very sad though. I am very proud of myself this year for changing a lot and growing up but I am very disturbed by the fact that my best friend is too afraid to invite me to her house because I might ruin things again. I didnt do anything that bad but it bugs me sooo much that they dont want to see me. When I think about it I just want to cry because I ruined it all. I said a stupid joke that in my family would be funny but to them it wasnt. I wish I could take it all back. Like right now its bugging me because I havent been over there in forever and I wish things would change. I know I talk about it a lot with her and she gets mad at me but I dont know what to do. I am praying about it and I know God has a reason for everything but I always tend to be sad about it. :(

Well I am going to downtown disney now. I just hope one day they will forgive me and see the new stephanie who doesnt act like that anymore.

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